I made a radical decision recently. It’s not quite operational yet, so I still copy it every time I rewrite my schedule of recurring work, scribbled at the bottom.
Exclaiming: “Oh yes! That’s a good one!”
I already forgot it.

So I wrote it out again but when I live and breathe this life slogan, I will no longer need a visual reminder.

The words are this:
“I’m going to love the shit out of everybody I know and meet.”
Woah!

However, I will not be selling you on this as a miracle cure.
Most notably because I have spent years creating distance from others or you could say that “the years have been creating distance.”
So I do not have strong emotional bonds anymore, which was originally not by choice.

The majority of relationships simply disappeared, and where I did actively participate it always had an outcome that seemed inevitable and aligned.

Until a combination of relationships ending or changing, as well as a newfound standpoint about the nature of relationships in the abstract sense, I realized it was all already done.
It had all already happened.
The era where I still actively participated in relationships was over, and I could not go back.

It’s like when you buy a new phone and your old charger has the wrong plug.
It no longer fits your new phone.
In the same way, I was no longer able to dock, recharge or connect with my old life, with a USB 2026 socket.

I am in a rebuilding phase now, pondering questions like:
“Now what?”
When I noticed the tremendous space that had formed itself around my heart.

Love was no longer specific, no longer bound.
And also: Everyone who had ever been there, was still here.

It had become largely infinite and infinitely large.

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