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1. Welcome! 00:00 To the last episode of basically everything I had going on, both on this New Rock Star Channel as well as on the Catacombe blog.
Both this website and the New Rock Star channel will both stay up, I just won’t be posting new work.
2. The Rock Star Mindset changes everything 01:48
The Rock Star and the Trolls? It was all connected
I had been exploring the Rock Star theme here for years. Yet when I started sharing a planning system, I assumed it had nothing to do with the Rock Star content. But the Rock Star mindset was what actually made the planning system/dollhouse and troll system, work!
The Rock Star is a powerful archetype, it puts you in the driver seat of your own life. It makes it easy to see where all the pieces go. Or where all the planning trolls go, in my case 😉
3. The Story of Jon Bon Jovi 06:50
Jon Bon Jovi went on his first world tour, just 22 years old. This is the story of how Jon Bon Jovi’s Rock Star mindset shot him from New Jersey; To the stars.
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Because it’s not in the hows, the 5 step plan, or the knowing and the understanding of the thing that makes it move, or holds it together.
It’s you breathing life into it. — I have seen the movie Project Hail Mary twice, and watched its runtime worth in YouTube videos as well. They go deeper into the film’s success and what it tells about friendship. Because the human carrying this film develops a friendship with an alien.
Together, they save both their worlds.
The human is a scientist-turned-school teacher Ryland Grace, a.k.a. “Grace” played by a disarming Ryan Gosling. The alien looks like a five-legged spider made out of rocks.
Because Grace cannot understand Rocky, Grace gives him a voice using a computer.
“Rocky like.”
Now Rocky can talk, and we can hear what he has to say.
“Rocky Grace save stars.”
Which of course, is easier said than done. Back on earth, the mission leader had admitted it was a long shot but also said to Grace that he was smart. “You’ll figure it out.”
Or, as Rocky would say: “Words of encouragement.”
Project Hail Mary describes how waking-up lightyears away from home; Having been sent against your will; And with a challenging mission; Can turn into the best thing that ever happened to you.
Because you meet an alien who turns out to be the best friend you ever had <STATEMENT>
Not despite these challenging conditions; But because of it!
“Save Earth. Save Erid,” Rocky writes on a chalkboard for Grace, right before he loses consciousness.
Had Grace still had other scientists who could have helped him? Or had Rocky still been part of the large Erid mission crew, that originally populated his spaceship? None of this would have happened.
But now, Rocky sets up his workshop right next to Grace’s laboratory. Sure, they find the answers and build the solutions they need, yes.
But more than that, they build one hell of a sturdy, cross-galactic, inter-species friendship.
“Amaze. Amaze.”
~Suzanne Beenackers
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After 3,5 years, I am closing Catacombe, making this the final episode of What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today.
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A long, long time ago, I regularly went out with new men.
Sometimes we’d been connected on social media for a couple of months, or we’d met on a dating site.
On the odd occasion it was someone I’d met in real life.
In this era, I was focused on platonic dating. I wasn’t in love with them, and maybe because of that, I did not view myself as having high, or too high, expectations. A glass of wine and an interesting conversation was all I asked for.
I knew they were able to tweet 140 characters without making a fool of themselves; Sent private messages without including inappropriate photos; And if I had met them in real life, I understood what they were about and knew there was potential there.
What could possibly go wrong?
Well, fortunately nothing went wrong in terms of risks. Nothing bad happened. However, I had been setting myself up for disappointment in a way that had never happened when I still regularly had lovers.
Because I had managed to overlook one major flaw in my strategy; The men were still looking for more.
The platonic disclaimers I always gave around the time we were setting up a date, never made any difference.
The date itself was always fun yet, without exception, they always ended with me having to repeat the exact same message I had already said before we had gone on the date. That I was not interested that way.
In the end I got so fed up with it, I stopped assessing IF a man was expecting more, and always closed a date repeating my no-interest-for-more disclaimer.
On two occasions, my first-date had let me talk, grinning a bit. Unmoved, they answered something along the lines of: “Your loss.”
I remember them both, they were right. I lost.
. ~Suzanne Beenackers
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This week episode 9: “The Daily Trolls (who prevent stuff piling up)”
— In CREATOR we make our art/content, but you can plan anything with this system. The only rule for these videos is: – no preparation Because any process you don’t know by heart, belongs in the trash bin!
1. Welcome to another episode 00:00 In the CREATOR series, where we plan making our content. But you can plan anything with it.
The system we use is Scrum which originates from business (from software development, to be exact) and is called Scrum. But I visualize it with a dollhouse, so for us it’s just The Dollhouse System. You can also visualize it in a different way for example a notebook or a planning app or, unmentioned here, a planning board. Which definitely take up less space than a dollhouse so I get it 😉
2. How to set up your planning (recap) 02:00 Including a (for now) (probably) highly confusing story of how the full length of my sprint is 4 weeks, but actually, also, my sprint is really just one week. Don’t worry if it doesn’t make sense, I will be getting back to this in the next episode. So I left it in.
This recap covers how I plan when to create my content every Sprint, which runs in my case from Friday to Thursday.
In the next episode: I will explain how to start tying your content planning (what to POST) into your “Dollhouse” production planning (what you CREATE)
For this week, I’m just walking you through The Dollhouse, which represents my real-time planning.
Topfloor: Balcony: These are the trolls/content that have been posted this sprint. I’m coming out of a holiday, so I have not posted anything yet this spring (the balcony is empty) Dome of Done: Here is all the content that is done, and can be posted or is already scheduled (so it goes out automatically) Because I am coming out of a holiday, I am ahead of schedule, with much of my content already done.
Second floor, The floor of “Doing” Work in progress, or trolls which are In Transit, as I like to call it This is content I am currently working on. So now I have 2 video trolls on there, because I’m creating videos today. A troll with rainbow hair has become the designated troll for this CREATOR series.
First floor, Room of Ready These are the trolls/ pieces of content that are selected to be created this sprint, but are not yet taken into production
Ground floor, infinite possibilities All the trolls/ content you could be creating, or that are for upcoming sprints.
3. The Daily Trolls 08:16 That prevent stuff from piling up. Represented as a bunch of tiny trolls, patiently waiting in line in front of the Dollhouse. These Daily Trolls make it visible for me, what I need to be doing every week.
Related to these Daily Trolls is the concept of Technical Debt. In the Industry, Technical Debt means that you’ve taken shortcut creating your product, and said it was done, when there was in fact a whole bunch of stuff that still needed to be done.
But as a content creator, Technical Debt can also mean something else; It’s everything you can skip for months, but it will one day need to get done, before you can move forward/ create content.
For me those areas are housekeeping and finance: The past few months I have skipped them, in favor of a 100% success on my content, but now I had to invest days in my precious holiday to keep up.
The Daily Trolls represent the amount of work you have to put in every sprint, in order to avoid falling behind in areas that ultimately, and inevitably, do need to get done.
I close the video by explaining the two pluche trolls:
The pink troll is the Scrum Master Your inner-bird’s eye perspective on how your Sprint went.
And the blue troll is the FROCC Monster.
It stands for the 5 values in Scrum: Focus, Respect, Openness, Courage and Commitment. Anytime you have to solve or decide on something, you can run your options by this Monster to check if you’re feeding it the correct values. Like a Tamagotchi (an electronic pet) the Monster becomes wonderful if you treat it well, and feral if you don’t take care of it properly.
And also, start small. On difficult things or the stuff that might get you injured if you overdo it.
Turn up the dial on pleasure, on joy, on passion and on purpose. But do it slowly. — In midlife the worst thing happened, as well as the best thing happened. The lemons brought me to the lemonade.
And that sweetness would never have happened if life’s lemons had not first brought me to my knees. And not in a good way.
Looking back it’s almost impossible to estimate exactly how much I resent this horrific time, without acknowledging the priceless lessons, transformations and perks it brought me. All things that were so profoundly spiritual that I feel embarrassed to admit what I praise this period the most for. The actual lemonade, the sweetness this time brought me, is something very basic; It got me on hormones.
And medically speaking, you have to start when middle-aged for best effects and to do it the safest. The way I understood it, had I let the time-window of middle-age pass, my hormone receptors would have started to perish, making hormone therapy far less effective.
But without having been so sick?
I would never have asked for them nor would they have been offered or suggested to me within the Dutch healthcare system.
But that’s not the end of this story, because I have to rebuild my capacity for everything. Social interaction. Travel. Concerts. Everything that involves a lot of sensatory input. Through trial and error, hour by hour.
The way I see it now, is that just like with the hormones, we have “receptors” for everything. And not using them, might mean losing them.
So everything that is worth a lot to you? Keep developing it!
Keep pushing the bar.
And everything you have not done in a very long time, even if it’s stuff that’s easy for others; Start small. But start.
Awaken your receptors.
~Suzanne Beenackers
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There is only one photo of Marilyn Monroe in the Canva database, which I use to create pictures to go with my blogpost.
There are zero results for the search Andy Warhol. Or there are, but none of them are either Andy Warhol nor of his art.
There are no paintings when I search Canva for Post-modernism, the name of the movement Warhol’s work is categorized under. All Postmodern results are architecture, and these photos are not in the top 3. The search engine is more eager to connect Postmodernism to a woman making a photo of a heart-foamed cappuccino with her phone; A cork board with an empty snippet of paper pinned to it; And a square garden light next to a path, in the evening.
But inadvertently, these poor search results might have proven Postmodernism’s point.
“Postmodernism […]emerged in the mid-20th century as a skeptical response to modernism, emphasizing the instability of meaning, rejection of universal truths, and critique of grand narratives.”
“In the future, everyone will be world-famous for 15 minutes”, Andy Warhol predicted in 1968. Similarly, Postmodernism foreshadowed that everything is, or at least could be, art.
Until it’s 2026 and with the lines around what art is being blurred to the point of being invisible, the only definition standing is that apparently “real” art is not in the Canva database.
Real art, is protected.
In the 80s a Dutch museum wanted to make an exhibition about modern art.
In order to choose from the overwhelming number of options, they came up with rigid specifics on what was art.
In a merciless selection, they decided if the work met these criteria of what real art actually was.
If it did, it was immediately rejected.
. ~Suzanne Beenackers
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1. We’re back! 00:00 With a Rock Star Take on SEXUALITY And if you’re watching this in real time, I just had a little holiday, so this is the first video that will go up after I’m back. And I’m prerecording this, but as you will notice I seem to be making more mistakes than usual, so I really need that holiday!
This is the spring edition of a Rock Star Take on Sexuality. These videos are usually pretty dense so once every three months I try to lighten them up with a topic that seems to be a little more fun for many of us.
2. How to really enjoy The Thing 01:23 I think I have something solid for you this time! Breaking my own rule not to prepare this, I thought a little about it beforehand, and I think I have something good for you.
3 ways to enjoy it more
3. #1 Honor your Yesses! 03:17 Just like No is No (and should be respected); a Yes (“I want!”) is indeed, a Yes. Let that sink in. Even when we’re single, we’re masters at talking ourselves out of getting intimate with someone we met, at a moment when we least expected it, and then started talking to and had so much chemistry with.
We (even as singles) always find reasons why it’s not a good idea.
We should start treating spontaneous chemistry with someone, as being given a box with the finest ingredients, for free. Probably ingredients you would not know where or how to find them, if you went looking for them. Of course you would cook a delicious meal, if that happened!
So honor your Yesses, and start “cooking”.
4. #2 The Brave Shortcut 06:13 This one only takes a lot of guts! No preparation required, but here we go: Be present in the moment. That’s it.
Once you can be in the moment, you accept everything that happens in that connection and step back entirely from the idea of how “it” or any one of you should be; The gates to the heavens open.
5. #3 Be fulfilled on your own 09:13 Definitely the most difficult one, but also the most rewarding! It’s to (re-)create your own sexuality from the inside out, (an “ecosystem”, would probably have been the best word), so rich that intimacy with someone else is no longer a prerequisite for it to be fulfilling.
Experiences with someone else are no longer the main ingredient; They’re now the icing on the cake.
6. Next time in a Rock Star Take On 11:42
When filming this video I did not yet have a topic for next time, but I promised I would give one here.
And I have a very powerful topic for you! It might feel triggering, but it’s one with a lot of power buried deep within it… Let’s unleash.
Up next a Rock Star Take On SHAME!
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Physically, mentally, financially, time-wise; Let the right one in. — I don’t consider myself psychic. Or, if I’m honest, I do still consider myself psychic, but all evidence points to that I’m not since all predictions I made with regard to love, have proven to be false.
Luckily for me, these were not events that played out on a world stage, and if I had not told you about it you would not have known. So no harm done.
Yet it frustrated me I got this wrong, and started toying with the idea of making my intuition and psychic abilities more accurate.
I landed on desiring an endgame where everything was told to me by spirits or higher powers. Accurately, preferably. But the whole experience of being informed by higher powers or mystical entities alone, was already highly appealing.
Around this time, when I realized all my predictions had fallen flat, someone said that they would never “contact” unseen powers or “entities” Quotation marks for contact, because I would never actively contact through a seance or anything. And quotation marks for entities, because I don’t have a less spooky word. But you get the idea.
Words and nuances aside, it was clear that I held a different belief in the matter. And not because I thought contact with the unseen was always harmless.
I understood the concern. But there was a difference of opinion, which was that I was much more weary of the dangers of everyday interactions and of systems that hold our society together.
The legal and financial consequences of marriage or having your own business for example.
I’m not saying it’s healthy to overthink these kinds of constructs, but to me these unforeseen consequences of regular life choices are more scary than the idea of accidentally opening the gates to hell.
Being vigilant of who or what you allow into your life, is a 24/7 job. It cannot be limited to keeping out the Ouija board.
~Suzanne Beenackers
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Welcome back to What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today! From June 2025 to April 2026, older Canva pictures and setups from 2023 were used. But we’re back, and ready to rock.
It was voted best Dutch movie of the 20th century and had 3.3 million people seeing it in theatres.
A success similar to the 1969 book with the same title.
Both this Dutch movie and its bestselling novel went international under the name “Turkish Delight”. A direct translation of the Dutch title.
My guess is the subtitled version of the movie Turkish Delight did not gain a lot of traction until the 80s, when VHS made distribution more accessible.
This coincided with Turkish Delight’s director Paul Verhoeven as well as lead actor Rutger Hauer, now having Hollywood careers. The film was studied by people who were looking into either one.
But what was it about Turkish Delight that had made it so compelling to begin with?
The novel was written by the Netherlands’ iconic writer, Jan Wolkers. As opposed to his contemporaries, Jan wasn’t just a flamboyant writer but also an artist who drew and sculpted women. This gave him a colorful life to write about, and he pulls you straight into his bed, writing this book in the first person.
The opening page describes him touching himself while looking at a photo of his ex-girlfriend. He is angry she left him for a traveling salesman. After weeks of self-pity he gets his act together, takes a shower, dresses up and embarks on a string of sexual escapades. Sometimes three women in a day.
What is not said in the book, but I remember it from the movie, is how bohemian and artistic the space is.
A ground floor studio in Amsterdam. It’s a workshop and living space in one.
Everything is drenched in sunlight; The messy bed, white walls, paintings, drawings, sculptures, work in progress everywhere.
Is an artist’s life their truest art?
. ~Suzanne Beenackers
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— The next CREATOR video with troll dolls will drop Monday 18 May 2026. — In CREATOR we make our art/content, but you can plan anything with this system. The only rule for these videos is: – no preparation Because any process you don’t know by heart, belongs in the trash bin!
1. Welcome to a new episode in the CREATOR series 00:00
Where we plan (boring! I know) in a better way. And it’s an exciting day because I’m introducing new trolls today.
2. Why this system works so well 01:20 Although you wouldn’t say it, if you see me in action with a dollhouse and trolls, I am actually using an official system called SCRUM. You can identify this system by its use of Sprints, time periods from 1 to 4 weeks. SCRUM was created in the 90s to breakup software development into smaller time brackets, that always delivered something useful (an increment).
But the great thing about SCRUM is that you can’t just use it to make large projects more manageable into bite-sized pieces. It’s also really useful to make small projects. like creating content, more structured and to step of the treadmill of creating on the fly! (but you can still create on the fly – to which I will come back to later)
With SCRUM, represented here by a dollhouse and trolls, you can make big projects smaller and small projects more structured and deliberate.
3. Creating on the fly; but planned 06:50 Your production does not have to be knowing exactly what you want to create. You can schedule pockets of time to create whatever you want.
SCRUM, because of its origin in software development, is traditionally tailored to making big projects smaller. As an artist the way to apply this is to break up your big projects (f.e. a book) into bite-sized ones (weekly post). But you can also use it to make small projects, like on-the-fly posting, bigger; Into a strong creation/ production schedule.
4. How to plan your week 08:06 With the dollhouse (recap) -ground floor: Infinite possibilities -1st floor: Room of Ready- what you have selected to create this week -2nd floor: Floor of doing, Everything that is in transit -3rd floor: Dome of Done, Everything that is done + also 3rd floor Balcony: Everything that is both done, and also posted (delivered)
5. Introducing the FROCC Monster (a new troll) 10:13 FROCC stands for the values of SCRUM; Focus, Respect, Openness, Courage and Commitment I introduced the FROCC Monster as a reminder to stay in line with these.
I compare the FROCC Monster to the Tamagotchi, an electronic pet from the 90s. Depending on how you take care of it, it grows up into something extraordinary or into a monster. The FROCC Monster can only stay healthy if you feed it the 5 values on its list.
The FROCC Monster will be present in every video, similarly to the pink Scrum Master troll, who monitors the process and our weekly Review.
6. Introducing Technical Debt (new trolls) 15:15 Traditionally, Technical Debt means things you bypassed to deliver the product on time.
So for software this may the product may not be compatible with future elements. But I also recognize another type of Technical Debt; Resources are failing to take care of, which will ultimately undermine your production capacity.
When you see the pile of things that don’t get done rising, plan these 2 things: 1 – the big clean up for every area where you have Technical Debt (1 troll each) 2. – an improvement to your weekly planning system (1 smaller troll each) To include the area where technical debt accumulated
7. Recap 23:39 This system is not limited to planning your content, or your production. You can also include other work for example Technical Debt (=updating incomplete work, maintenance or work on your resources) and improvements on the planning system itself. “Include financial administration into weekly sprint“ Can be a troll similarly to a piece of content that needs to be created, and with a troll on the first floor, as Ready to be taken into production. — NEW 2026: Want to work together on this? The CREATOR and MESSENGER now have matching programs. You can find them both here: https://catacombenijmegen.com/current-offer/
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It was voted best Dutch movie of the 20th century and had 3.3 million people seeing it in theatres.
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