I’m happy I didn’t know how long this would take. Not what it was, nor why it happened. I was free to brush it off as a temporary deviance from the normal, attributed the common causes and labeled in a way that normalized it.
But part of me knew it wasn’t.
I was being separated from life itself.
And it hurt.
The first years were filled with connections falling away, that had been difficult for a longer time.
Change that was not necessarily my own initiative, but that I could quickly recognize as being the best for all parties, once they had happened.
There was a certain inevitability to them.
After that another few years, where the relationships closest to me, either fell away or changed at their core.
These were the most disturbing and discouraging years, and yet I still thought I could save something, needed healing, or that these events were comorbid to a crisis or problem that had a name and a solution.
They were not.
Being stripped of all my relationships was what those years were for.
And then finally, as if taken away by unseen forces, all people who had been loyal to me were taken away.
As if a soundproof wall was placed between us.
We could still visit each other, but were no longer connected.
None of this was chosen.
As far as I know I was happy, and I had consistently been happy for as long as I could remember.
I also did not have any urges to glow up my life or do a makeover!
If it had been up to me, nothing major would have changed.
And from my point of view, no result would have been worth this cost.
Yet it happened.
And I am determined to squeeze it for every lesson.
Because this was never ever chosen.
But I will alchemize every horror into gold.
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