Catacombe

Retrieved, story added and reposted March 2026

“They’re both old, and I still haven’t done them”
I would say to Suzanne 2023.
Because they are.
Although one of them has definitely cleared up a lot. It should not be such a big deal for me anymore to tackle it (it’s clearing out the basement).

And although I still agree with Suzanne 2023;
I would also argue or reassure her that the KNOWING you’re out of integrity, is really what’s doing the magic here.
Not the acting on it.

The not-being in integrity is in your sloppy, messy, annoyed, I-can’t-even, thoughts about it.
Not in the “it” itself.

In other words: I would say awareness is what brings integrity.
Not the action.

A cleared basement is out of integrity if it was attained by not attending to other more important duties.
Or if you bully your family members into keeping it clean.

It reminds me of when we lived abroad when I was a child. The children of a bunch of families regularly played outside, unsupervised.
And we were given a couple of rules, from which I remember only one, probably because we systematically broke it;
We were not supposed to turn over any rocks, because there could be snakes and scorpions underneath.

With this in mind, we took turns turning the stones, with the other children at safe distance.
The one who turned the stone, flipped it over, immediately fleeing back.
Tiptoeing we’d make our way back, to see what was there.

“We always we were always turning rocks…” I said to my mother, when we were already back in the Netherlands.

She paused then said:
“But you were careful though.”

She had never told me what to do;
She had learned me to be aware.

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

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Retrieved, story added and reposted March 2026

I have to say, I was a bit stunned at how much I needed to hear this message, 2.5 years after writing those opening words…

As if I pulled a super-matching oracle card from a deck I do not own, or Instagram served me a post from an unknown account.
And I saved it as background picture for my phone:
“My luck! This is just what I need!” 

Because the times they are achanging.
And I am at that point where you have your swimming cap and goggles on, at the edge of the pool.
Taking a very deep, slightly hurdled and emotional breath, knowing this is the only way forward.

The management summary is this:
My work will be limited to 40h a week, including content creation.
And this is new.

My creativity has always come first, but because of this my workhours have gotten completely and utterly out of hand.
In particular if I include what I will call:
“Creative loss.”
Which is being “sidetracked” by my creative mind, which cannot function in a minimalist productivity environment.

Creativity needs wandering, and in my case that wandering was often online.
The tabs on my computer have been like windows to the world, and I no longer want that;

I want my window to be 100% connected to real people!

And then, maybe, a tiny bit to education too. But very targeted, very specific.
And within the 8 hours.

And at 18.00?
This window will close.
On weekends?
Dito.
To give more breathing room to my social life, but also;
To start curating my 20 year big body of work.

*soft sigh*

A task of Herculean proportions.

And a journey that starts like all the others, with a single step or an insecure dive.

And more often than not;
Alone.

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

🖤

Catacombe’s other series “Rock Star Take On”
also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

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Retrieved, story added and reposted Feb 2026

“The world is changed.
I feel it in the water.
I feel it in the earth.
I smell it in the air.
Much that once was, is lost.
For none now live who remember it”

from: Fellowship of the Ring

For those of us who still remember the thrill of putting a cassette tape back together, winding it up with a pencil;
But also for those who burned their own CDs.

The ones who experienced weekends that stretched into eternities.
Yet were always closed with that astringent Sunday night.

Were hit by the single spark that turned a peer into a lover.
All ingredients had been there all along, but you didn’t see it until the opportunity was served to you on a platter.
An unexpected moment of sweetness.

We have a choice to make whether we bother to recreate these recipes, now that we may still be able to find the ingredients.

Because the rich, tactile, physical experience of being our own sovereign being without being connected through our phones;
It will not return by itself.

But retrieval will come at tremendous cost.
We will not get a good deal on this, and be paying full price.

What are you willing to sacrifice, to gain the full flavor of your life back?

Your connection to the digital world?
Series you have been able to make smalltalk with?
Being up to date on the news?

Recording your life as if it’s a performance?

Because I suspect it’s all still there under the watery surface and the stale overcooked pulp.

The delicacy of the moments that feel like a lifetime.
The transitory, feeding us tender bites that melt on our tongue.
The fumes penetrating our clothes.

Will you leave behind the life that forced you to consume so shallow?
Your body and all its senses starving.
And you know what will happen if you fail.
Then this will be what life tastes like, until the end of your days.

Or will you start making proper meals, once more?

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
become the Rock Star you were born to be

offers for Rock Stars
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

🖤

Catacombe’s other series “Rock Star Take On”
also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

&

🗞️📰 since MAY 2024: SUBSTACK

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Retrieved, story added and reposted Feb 2026

I sometimes wonder what will happen if it doesn’t amount to anything. If no one will remember my work, or worse, if I lose the work.
Through an internet fallout, just like in the movie Bladerunner 2049, clearing all data we have ever stored.
Or, less futuristic, if a fire or a flood destroys all my notebooks, both the paper ones as well as my computer notebooks.
How will I cope?
What will it mean?

Rutger Hauer, the actor who played in the original Bladerunner in 1983, documented his life and kept memorabilia of all the films he was involved with.
They were all stored in Los Angeles yet they were all lost in a flood.
All the careful collecting and documenting did not amount into a record of his life or teachings, the way he had intended.

Now obviously this does not mean it was in vain. But with the broader purpose of serving those who came after him gone, its meaning can now only be found in the personal, and no longer in the public.

And it makes you wonder: Does a future audience even exist?
Or are these mirages we cling to in order to avoid confronting our own desires?
Which could be deemed self-centered.

However, what we do know with certainty is that Rutger Hauer became the most well-known Dutch actor who ever lived. And that even without the personal archive it is not hard to see he built it with his own impressive, bare hands.
Deliberately, but with a lot of trial and error, painful lessons and sacrifice.

Focusing on the project at hand, week after week, month after month, year after year.
Today’s work, not tomorrows legacy.
He built what could not be washed away, burned nor buried.

His character Roy Batty dies in Bladerunner with the prophetic words:
“All those moments will be lost in time.” 

Or maybe they never will.

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
become the Rock Star you were born to be

offers for Rock Stars
📍📡🖤-> https://catacombenijmegen.com/current-offer/

Subscribe to receive
What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

🖤

Catacombe’s other series “Rock Star Take On”
also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

&

🗞️📰 since MAY 2024: SUBSTACK