Category: That ONE Book (start at any page)

It’s impossible to put the pieces together, or establish the chronology of things.
All I can say is that by now, I have become one with what I do. And I mean, what I actually do when “left unsupervised” which I always think is such a cute expression when used for adults.
But also when I am “supervised”!

Because I still do it when logically speaking, socially speaking, or economically speaking, I should be doing something else.

I’ve even had an entire era of my life where I did not attend to my health at all, but this comes with the disclaimer that I could afford to not pay attention because my work as a yoga teacher provided a solid foundation.
I rode my bicycle to my classes, did a lot of yoga, and the night time classes prevented me from going out.
So although I drank alcohol, the occasions to do so were extremely limited.

But I suspect that if I had not taught yoga, but had had a job at an office, I would still not have made an effort health wise.

So this work, for me, is writing.
That, is the thing I actually did when people assumed I was a yoga teacher, a business owner, and so on.
To this day, people assume that by work I mean my professional life.

When it is not, and it has never been.
And the exact same thing goes for you.
What you love doing, is what you are designed to do, here on this earth.

Many assume that “it” can’t be it!
Because of a string of reasons tied to either the financial side of it, or because it’s so much fun; “Anyone would want that”.

No; YOU want that!
And yes, it’s still your work even if it doesn’t make you money.

This thing is your calling, and it has been carved into the deepest layers of your being.
This was not left up to chance.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
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Writing this in 2026, I can say:
“Another year, another World Economic Forum conference.”
Because this meetup in Davos is taking place on the day this is posted.

But a decade from now, I have no idea what world you are in.
You could be reading these stories in the printed form of a book, or you could be my cave buddy and you’re helping me out with the clay tablets.
Focused on the work of leaving some mark of civilization behind.

But whatever our different living situations might be, what we probably share is that our lives are like children’s.
All important decisions are made without us, being told just enough simplistic Sunday school versions of the truth, to be informed.
At least, technically.

Yet even that layer is one we should cherish, because it is directly linked to media providing at least some form of accountability.

In Europe, international power structures have been in place for thousands of years.
Yet the people were not informed, not educated, pitted against one another and weaponized to do the dirty work. 
We are not in a good situation, but at least this day and age we know who’s coming for us.

It reminds me of this ancient story, about a land worker who sees the king being carried around, and wishes he were the king.
And the story is much longer than I remember, but it ends of course in the king looking at the worker and wishing he were them.
Relieved of the constant worry and responsibility.

So maybe whatever our times, or however our situation, the work is the same.
The work right in front of you.
It’s the everyday things.

Perhaps the wisdom for the ages is to focus on the work that has been given to you.
Nothing more, yet certainly nothing less.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
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To this day I don’t know why I didn’t like the French book Le Petit Prince.
Well, a translated one, since I don’t understand more French than the title.

It’s of course difficult to understand what I mean by “Like”, as everyone knows who used Social Media in the binary time when the only emoji for a post was “a like”.
A thumbs up.
This often lead to people also placing a comment, explaining the thumb did not mean they actually liked the sad event that had happened in the post.

Nowadays the response emojis are more diversified. A heart, a thumbs up, a sad emoji, and a link to the full menu of all other available emojis are now standard.
We no longer have to limit a quick response to “Like”.

When it comes to reading books or watching movies however, we’ve always had access to more words and to providing more context.
So when I say I didn’t like Le Petit Prince, let me preface that by saying I refrain from watching any form of drama.
I find drama overwhelming, notice it hardens me, and it seems to make me deeply cynical.

But I don’t recall Le Petit Prince being dramatic in the sense of reflecting the injustice of our societies, or the horrible things people do to each other.
Instead, the prince was the only person on his planet and he was terribly lonely.

Over time I did not change my opinion on the book (still no Like from me!) but I did get a little more eloquent as to why I did not like it.
Because I understood we are all just as alone as the Little Prince is.

According to the book description, the Prince ultimately ends up on Earth.
And I think he will make a great Earthling.

His heart is open to connect and it is so much bigger than ours.
It holds infinite space.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
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I’m going for writing 365 chapters over the course of 9 years, and then bring it to print.
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This post was written Wednesday 31st 2025, on the first morning I have quit being online, in the same way I once quit smoking.
Restless, resentful, and determined to do whatever it takes, because I’m not going through this again.

Unfortunately though, I do not possess the powerful Make or Break Energy which I had back then.
I did not wake up late and hungover after a night of smoking in a venue full of smoke and loud conversations.

But I did wake up groggy, as is pretty much standard since 2020.
And I knew exactly who to blame:
YouTube on my phone.

Decades later “Just one more cigarette” had mutated into “Just one more YouTube video”
And that’s after cancelling evening computer hours, and not having had any subscription to streaming services, for years.

YouTube, the last of my old online addictions, had to go.

And not just because I no longer want to wake up groggy.
I’m also curious if I can regain my 20th century consciousness?
And what will happen if I do?

I predict life will be so colorful, so rich, so interesting.

There’s a lot to do about the concept of hyperreality where AI makes everything look more pretty.

But I think hyperreality is what I will see once my mind is no longer tied to my phone.
And I think it will go beyond this dimension too.

I don’t consider myself psychic, but by now (10 years into our hyper-connected phone era?) I’m definitely curious what I will be able to pick up on, after I’ve stopped numbing myself with YouTube.

What appears once the digital noise has stopped?
What are the messages from the universe?
Who else is there in the unseen?

I am going to rely on whatever I can pick up on in that newfound silence.
Peeking through the veil.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
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I’m going for writing 365 chapters over the course of 9 years, and then bring it to print.
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For me, this year has been about sprints of growth, lightbulb moments, two friendships that deepened, and both through entirely different routes.

It has been about two friends and one professional dropping out of connection, and wondering if they would miss me if I no longer contacted them or be relieved.

It has been about the most important conversation of the past decade taking place, just when I’d given up.

It has been about a realization that I really trust God will keep me alive to do my work.
Or not, and be granted an early exit out of here.
I expect it will feel like a Wednesday afternoon from my childhood, when school finished early.

Yet whether I die at 104 or earlier, I am prepared to do it alone.
Since I figured that one out, the other pieces have been falling into place effortlessly.

I no longer need to think as much, life is easier. Even for the ones who take their distance, I will never force them to deal with me, in this new state.

Being unwilling to water myself down or to sugarcoat things;
No longer investing copious amounts of time to begin with;
Of course that has social consequences.
As it bloody hell should.

But I had not thought about how this works for concepts like allegiance and loyalty.
The idea of going the extra mile and showing up when things get difficult.

With whom do you side, when you no longer supply the social glue of superficiality?
Where does it still gel?

Who can count on my allegiance, and vice versa on whose allegiance can I count?

My answer is I would look for character, moral boundaries, and faith in a higher power.
Which can also be the higher Self.

Before we stand shoulder to shoulder, I need to know theirs will hold.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
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I’m going for writing 365 chapters over the course of 9 years, and then bring it to print.
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The bonds of our families run deep. We share names, histories, opinions, values.
Even if we would not know our biological family, we would still share bonds.

Our blood would bind us forever, even if we grew up in different parts of the world.
DNA is the unbreakable string.

We go through hell if we’re born into the wrong families, and we receive the gift of ingrained belonging when we’re lucky.
We can create chosen families too.

But there is always a bond, as in a bondage. An unfreedom.
A shackle (a “bond”), or a price to be paid.
No relationship, whether work, or with a partner, a friend, a neighbor;
It cannot be free, by definition.

And if you want peace I invite you to start bringing more awareness there.
Ideally, to make a choice of what you are, and are not, willing to pay.
How is your integrity defined and who do you owe your loyalty?

What are your must-haves, your non-negotiables;
What are your goals in life, and the values by which you live?

Peace starts with knowing yourself, and what you stand for.
But it ripples out into the world, by you saying No to the events, the people, the communities and the life paths that undermine your peace;
And, or, would take too much of your resources to defend your peace, compared to what they contribute to your life.

Peace requires not just knowledge of the self, but also the power and the guts to defend it.
It requires for you to stand up for yourself, to think independently.
It has an element of privilege because it requires having your own resources.
To trust you will rebuild.
Or, alternatively, to risk losing them.

The allegiance.
Peace means to know what side you’re on, because it’s the side you’re always on.

Yours.

~Suzanne Beenackers
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I’m going for writing 365 chapters over the course of 9 years, and then bring it to print.
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For years, and usually in December, I get that itch to reboot my life;
Get with the program;
Sit my ass down;
And finally fully commit to that one book, that I always vow I will one day read properly.

Not because I want to honor the author or to be in-the-know. Nor to up my credibility as a whatever, No.

The reason I feel it is so important, is to get my shit together by finally reading this thing cover-to-cover, make it my bible, quote it and to live by it every word, is because I know it will save my life.
And I’m already on my way to my book shelves before I get smacked over the head with the realization that this book does not exist.

Sure, I own books that are close to it, but they are not the same thing as “The Book”.
The Book That Does Not Exist then, apparently.

It is shocking how this book is so vividly present in my imagination, that I keep “returning to it”.
Except there is obviously nothing to return to.

I came to realize this book is in fact mine to write.
In my mind I have called it “The” One Book, referring to that it should be the only one you need.
And I’ve called it “That” One Book, in the brief moments I assumed it was already written by someone else, and all I needed to do was get to the shelves and fetch it.

My dream for this book was that its chapters should be short and with a clear title.
Reading it should be more about the dedicated routine of reading itself, than about the content.

May every chapter represent 5 minutes of your life, spent in sacred solitude.

Maybe you will light a candle or keep a journal on hand. But there won’t be any questions or assignments.

This book should be filled with chapters that bring closure.
And offer peace.

 

~Suzanne Beenackers
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