Category: The Lost Post Series

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Retrieved, blogged, and story added November 2025

Every time I am certain I’ve now thought enough about my peculiar life choices, that I’ve recalibrated yet again and yes still stand by what must seem  like odd choices, at surface level at least;
I get sucked into a new cycle.

Making just one small course correct!
Just a little something I found on the internet!
And that makes so much sense and will just increase the impact of whatever it is I am doing, bring what I desire, or that will solve that aching problem;
I end up in failure and frustration, yet again.
And sit down thinking it over.

Without exception, I notice it was all already exactly as it should be.
That the problem was not in me choosing the wrong interventions;
It was in me still being susceptible for solutions or tempting upgrades to begin with.

But the work that needs to be done will flow through you!
And if it doesn’t, then it’s not yours.
It will get done by forces bigger than us, or, alternatively, it doesn’t need to get done at all.
Maybe it was merely a projection of some outdated belief about being good or being responsible.

You know what is responsible?
Acting on your calling.
Which means doing the work that arrives at your doorstep, or in your thoughts, again and again.

But after that?
No longer your problem.

Maybe you feel CALLED to promote your work, or to find a place where you will be paid for it.
Then go ahead!
It’s part of the calling.

Maybe you feel called to save your work, curate it, publish it.
Great!
Clearly part of your calling.
You could feel CALLED to save someone else’s legacy and publish that.

But as a rule?
What happens to your work, is not your work.

Thank God.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

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But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

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original posted on my social media
9 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added November 2025

The older I get the more I realize:
“We don’t build anything. Don’t actually create anything either. Not really.
It is already done.”

There is a driving force beneath it, that we can feel and make the most of, or we can ignore it and try to make something with our own bare hands 100 meters to the right of it.
Achieving of course, nothing.

Because the foundation, the groundwork, was never supposed to be done by us.
It was already woven into the fabric of our existence, and we were only meant to pick it up from the thresholds of our dimension, and bring it into our world.

And this exceeds professional and creative endeavors;
It is in everything.
Or, alternatively, it isn’t.
And then it will never fly, never really be done, and fall apart the moment you take your eyes off of it.

I believe – and you might fiercely disagree with me on this!- that all the work is done in the other dimension. Our own influence is incredibly limited.
Which can be both a good, as well as a bad thing.

It’s good news, if we’re drowning in destructive emotions like hate (including self-hate), shame, despair and terror.
It would take some force from a dimension we do not understand, to manifest anything irreversible there.
You not being the main creator of your reality, could be the very thing that saves your ass here.

But the alternative is also true;
If we really, really want something, and no matter how we come at it, reality just won’t budge?
Oh that sucks.
A lot.

It can pay off to look for movement in this fabric of our reality.
Where does it vibrate with expectation?
Where does it stretch and expand, as if something is coming into existence?

Where, does it call your name.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

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original posted on my social media
8 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added November 2025

It’s been over two years since I wrote those words.
And by now I can testify that sometimes dreams get stuck, are not what they seem, and it can be frustratingly hard to carve out the actual dream from the solid mass in which they’re hiding.

And also that not knowing where you are on the journey, can be a blessing.
The reason I could work in 2023, was because I felt so on track!

And yet, little remained of the things I started. 

You can be excited about being en route, when the ultimate destination, if you even want to call it that, ends up having very little to do with where you thought you were going.

And yet, had I not gone after my dreams in 2023, I would never have ended up where I am today.

Here’s what I learned:

The most important one is to “just” start; But to keep it small.
Avoid designing a long-term path, and instead focus on making small steps.

Every journey and project, even the failed ones (maybe especially those!) provides so much valuable information about yourself and about your dreams as well.
And about how to get there.

See your attempts at achieving your dreams simply as experiments, and not as a binary thing where it is good if “it worked”, and you failed if there are no results.

Every attempt provides you with information.

The second piece of advice is to let your path be rooted in something you love doing.

F.e. I love abstract thinking, writing and planning.

But yours could be being part of a community, sharing your dreams with a (business) partner, or connecting in other ways.

You may have to actively sculpt your path to include those elements.

But after 2 years and 4 months?
It’s all that remains.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

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also goes out on ->
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Pleasure has the power to bring you down,
from the high of creative life
the scatteredness of the online world
To the now.

original posted on my social media
7 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added November 2025

“To be understood at an energetic level.”
My new wording of what it is I see myself doing, or growing into, does not exactly feel natural yet.
Maybe it never will, I don’t know.
But it does feel as true.

Because with the overload of information available, and our instincts to combat complex situations and problems with adaptable and agile solutions (or with equally complex structures) I foresee the end is either in sight, or already behind us.

There is only one place to return to, and this is our body.
Not the mind, so easily replicated by AI, but the body.

Have you realized how deprived we have become?
In our digital experience we use our eyes, then audio, but our tactile experience is limited to typing.

Just think about the rich experience of taking a music cassette out of the small case;
The touch of a crispy sleeve of a vinyl record;
Or the mechanical sounds of a VHS tape clicking into the player.

I even remember the smell from the music section in the library, because the plastic cover sleeves of the vinyl records had such a peculiar, delicious smell.

I know a building where a rubber wheelchair dorpel over the doorstep makes the whole hallway smell like the building of the primary school I went to, when I was very small.
It’s like a timeportal in scent.

We’re so deprived right now, we’ve lived in a sensatory desert the past decade.
I expect people will look back on the 2020’s and wonder if we didn’t realize our entire physical experience had been marginalized.
Where the richness of life has slipped through our fingers.

Right now, one road leads to us becoming bad robots.
The other to us embracing our physical Self.

And with that?
Our vibration.

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

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here is the full list

Of when your fear of rejection, expulsion, making a fool of yourself, being gossiped about,
being cursed and being laughed at, determines what you do;

(-)

Never.

original posted on my social media
6 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added October 2025

I think what I had counted as a crisis of faith.

Because honestly, if you’d asked me a few hours ago, before I had a nap that lifted the grogginess, or at least softened its razor sharp edges of having less than 3 hours sleep;

If you’d asked me the future of this What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today – series;
The fate of my New Rock Star YouTube Channel;
And the fate of the Catacombe blog (tagline “become the Rock Star you were born to be“, which Chat GPT had made synonymous with my name even half a year ago already)

Then I would have told you, I was going to drop them all.
Poof, gone, sorry, can’t do.

Now three hours sleep does not even generate enough cognitive power to decide what to have for lunch;
Let alone what to do with what has felt as my life’s work, right from the first posts in 2022.

But I didn’t know that.
My brain wasn’t working.

All I knew, was that at least this disruptive sleepless night had given me one actionable decision:
Catacombe, was out.

It was not bringing me closer to my longterm goals and my workweek was spilling over heavily into the weekend.
Something had to give.
And it was not going to be my Dutch work (which I have been wanting to expand on for months)
It certainly wasn’t going to be my Bon Jovi-related work (which is at an incredibly meager once every two weeks)

No, clearly it was Catacombe had to go.

And if you’d asked me this morning, I would have told you.
Smooth and matter-of-factly.
Without making a big deal out of it, or anything.

Until I got some sleep and remembered when one cancels something that brings joy;
Clarity;
Empowerment.
A sense of ownership and direction.

And perhaps not just to me;
But to you.

You guessed it;
Never. 

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

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Catacombe’s other series “Rock Star Take On”
also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

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Your future finances, body, possessions, clients, friends;
Are you ready to accommodate them?

When they knock, are they welcome?

original posted on my social media
5 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added October 2025

I’ve fallen head over “bootstrap” heels in love, repurposing these old posts. Which were the first of their kind, from a series (What Do Rock Stars Do Today) that ended up being my go-to format, committing to it indefinitely.

Today I also modified the Canva post, for the first time.
Adding the lesson onto it, something I did not do until now.

So today’s lesson is
“Act Ready”
And it’s definitely one I needed to hear as well.

Either these lessons from over two years back are universal, or I am such a slow and stubborn learner, that they are still relevant.

But the good news is;
I also learned good things can very well happen even when, technically, you are not ready.
Let me explain.

The readiness of your surroundings only matters as far as it is a reflection of blocking -or otherwise unhelpful- thought patterns.

In other words:
It is not your material world, nor the digital world for that matter.

For example always keeping your home clean, is not what brings you what you want: It is your (positive) conviction, that lies beneath it.
Your mental patterns.

There used to be a show, and I have never seen it, so it could be still on, but it was called:
Undercover Millionaire

Without a name, resources or a network, a millionaire would try to recreate their success, in a different location.
And nail it, while working themselves up from sleeping in their car, to earning their first million.

You know why?
Because in their head, they were still carrying the blueprint of success.

Our mind needs to be ready for what we want;
The rest will take care of itself.

 

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

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also goes out on ->
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step back

Pushing, influencing, even involving;
It creates chaos, not outcomes.
You have spoken, now be silent.

original posted on my social media
4 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added October 2025

It’s like a gate is slowly closing behind me, and I find myself in the process of looking back.
It is humbling to see how little I knew, in the times when I was doing great. And how much wisdom the past 8 years have brought, which were without a doubt the worst ever. 

They may not even be over, and I no longer need them to be.
To be okay with everything staying the way it is, it is the litmus test if my new philosophy, or mindset whatever you want to call it, is working.

As long as I am still dependent on external circumstances to change, then I am not done.

Any parts of the past 8 years which would still cause a meltdown if they happened again?
Aspects that need solving?
Urges that need satisfying?

Then they go on the (for now) imaginary To Do list, of things that need more time at the drawing board, or meditation cushion.
More deep conversations, more connection, more movement as well as more stillness.

Any part of the past 8 years that still stirs up emotions is a sign I have not been able to extract its lesson that will serve me forever.
Still not cracked its code.

And unless I do, that will always be a liability and I cannot have that.

The past 8 years have brought me a vision, of how I want my life to be;
My professional life, my private life, and even which (small) part of my work I want to curate, and leave behind.

But more than anything these years taught me that the gift is in knowing these things.
In having something to strive for.

Whether or not I achieve it needs be ingrained;
As entirely irrelevant..

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

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Catacombe’s other series “Rock Star Take On”
also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

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original posted on my social media
2 July 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added October 2025

As I just dug down for the second time, down the Instagram timeline where I posted the original version in 2023 –
two years of content flashed before my eyes.

It was a mindboggling trip down memory lane, where one would suffer too much from vertigo to take it in, just hopes it’s over soon, and then inadvertently opens their eyes to slow down and starts taking it in regardless.

Soon realizing that what is unfolding as two years of content history will be a particular brand of Incredibly Unhelpful.

It was like that moment when I realized virtually none of the people who were in my life an X amount of years ago, are still in my life.
And had to try very hard to not consider the entire connection as having been fake to begin with.

Because if a connection can fall apart, was it ever real?

So far everything in me screams No, but I’m just going to ignore that.
I just can’t live in a world where connections are not real.

Call me a romantic, but I have to keep believing that somehow they are.
Or will be.
That life will be different.
And that an X amount of years from now, everyone who is here now, will be here still.

In much the same manner, I now have to believe that although the glimpse of Timeline Past proves I have ended almost all series I ran in the previous years, and shifted my online work dramatically;
That the things I now post, are forever.

I have cut back on what I write considerably, and think I’m right.
This really is my core work, and it will stay this way.

But more than minimalist logic and romanticism, it is alchemy;
We create the new from the ashes of the old.

Friendships, businesses;
And legacies.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
become the Rock Star you were born to be

It’s a Holiday week!
So no regular content, but I am retrieving and writing a few Lost Posts.
See you Friday!

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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

🖤

Catacombe’s other series “Rock Star Take On”
also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

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original posted on my social media
30 June 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added October 2025

From the moment I started following Online Marketing, I was immediately hooked.
It’s difficult to estimate when I came on board, because my memories are a bit blurry.

I would swear I was still in my 2008 home when I discussed my first online business coach, yet my email box does not come up with any results on her name, before 2014.
Which was the year I discovered multiple ones, leaving me both entirely overwhelmed and euphoric.

But also puzzled, because how was this possible?

Every female business coach online provided nothing less than mesmerizing, earth-shaking, life-changing programs that elevated both working as an independent, as well as elevate your whole entire life to mesmerizing rock star heights;
Then how did I miss this?

And how come no one in the Netherlands talked about this?
Even though I had graduated on marketing and had been familiar with Multi-level marketing organizations without even knowing the word MLM.
That’s how new they had been at the time, and yet I HAD KNOWN them!

But this new wave of female business coaches, learning us how to run a business and to sell our services;
They were using the same words (marketing, small business, selling) yet I could immediately tell it was nothing I had ever encountered.

And how they had managed to make marketing in college so boring, when it was clearly anything but?

Q: Why had I missed the immense power in having your own business?

A: Because it has little to do with the actual running of the biz.

And absolutely everything;
With being the trailblazing Rock Star you came here to be.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
become the Rock Star you were born to be

It’s a Holiday week!
So no regular content, but I am retrieving and writing a few Lost Posts.
See you Wednesday!

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ABOUT THE LOST POST SERIES

I have been consistently posting “What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today” for a while now.
Starting June 2023, they found their final form as blogposts here on the Catacombe blog, pretty quickly.

But I’ve always been aware there were singular posts/ borderline poetry, still on social media, floating somewhere down my timeline.

Some at the beginning when I did not know what this series would be.
Some around the time in October/November 2023, when I lost access to this site.
And then a few in between.

And in addition to that there are the ones I did post on the blog, but whose stories revolve around things I no longer offer.
I will retrieve those too;
And give them a new story, that has the timeless quality they deserve.

.

Catacombe is email-list free!!

Yes – you can subscribe to receive new blogposts;
But no additional or promotional emails are sent – just the blog, sec.

Instagram – Twitter – Rock Star Writer Facebook – Facebook Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver – LinkedIn

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also goes out on ->
https://www.youtube.com/@TheNewRockStarChannel.

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original posted on my social media
30 June 2023
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Retrieved, blogged, and story added at 15 April 2025

I have ended my career as a yoga teacher, and told almost no one.
The first few days I was still convinced I would trade live classes and a local (side-) business, for taking online to YouTube:
– what I have to say about yoga
– what I have to contribute
– and what I have thought for many years would be mine to newly develop as well as to preserve or document for future generations.

I was convinced I’d continue online because I can make videos during daytime, not work evenings. And three hours spent making a video would be there for the ages, whereas the three hours it takes to teach one live class is temporary.

And it did make sense, because I have both been trained by the best, as well had a career that has span over two decades;
But No.

I will never make yoga videos again either.
It’s gone, it’s done.

I do know I will one day pick up teaching, but only locally!
Teaching those live classes was right for me. Creating a legacy or contributing something to the craft or industry itself, is just not my calling.
So despite those first few days, where I thought I may end my classes, but that I was committing to creating an online legacy, I ended up really retiring my profession as a yoga teacher as a whole.

Now don’t get me wrong, the biggest reason for doing so was definitely a very practical one, cutting this chord was indeed inevitable.
I am a writer first and foremost.
Not because I want to, not because I think it’s fancy or practical. Brutally honest truth;
Being a writer, or artist in general, is incredibly lonely and isolating.
No one in their right mind would choose it, but when you are, you are.
And you deal with it.

However, this means that together with the way I make my money, I already have two professions:
The Pro-one, and the writer one.
I can’t have teaching yoga there as a fifth wheel on the wagon.

So with earning money and writing, my workweek is already overbooked.
It’s a very simple equation.

That is all true. It is all very simple!
However!
What definitely did not help, was the complicated relationship society has with our physicality.
In particular with sexuality.
And even more specifically, female sexuality.

Which has been the case for thousands of years, and is deeply embedded in patriarchic structures.
But the online space and our use of social media has taken the objectification of female bodies to the extreme.

Now more than ever, we view ourselves from how others will view us.
We are performing.

Social media accounts where you are encouraged to accept and enjoy your body instead of performing, are rare.
And this indoctrination has been going on non-stop since 2015-ish.

It seems we owe people our beauty, and our looking nice, yet we are also still not entitled to our own sexual agency.

Female sexual repression is obvious, but naturally men are also sexually repressed.
Everybody is, and this is nothing new because this has always been the case.

By the time we’re in our mid-30’s, or hit 40, we’ve completely alienated from the whole Under The Belt Section.
And this will hold until midlife, where you have a chance to blow the lit off!

A good midlife crisis can do the trick of unleashing your repressed sexuality and all the other forces you have successfully suppressed for decades.
Or that society made you suppress before you were allowed to be a “part” of society.

In order to “belong” we have to de-sexualize ourselves or be openly monogamous. 

So this was already problematic, and whether or not social media had become as dominant as it obviously has, I would have figured it out one way or another.
There would have come a day where I would have figured out it is absolutely pointless to be known as a yoga teacher, and be seen as someone who has things to say about our physical well-being, when at the same time you have to play by the rules of being a sex-less human being.
We can’t talk about health when at the same time allowing for people to be cut off from their most visceral energy source.
Which is done by culture, and it is not our individual choice.
It is the price we have all paid, to belong.

Maybe the reason I have told almost no one I quit teaching yoga, is because I feel I am now FINALLY teaching it.
After two decades, I finally have the lesson for you in its unfiltered form, which will transform your physical and mental health more than anyone doing anything on the yoga mat has ever accomplished.

Want to know what it is?

Here is my yoga for you:

You are physically free.
Including sexual sovereignty.

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~Suzanne Beenackers
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