the point of no return is far behind you | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 10 13

the point of no return is far behind you

Your mission, your work, your history and your purpose;
They have built your strength, they have robbed you of your peace of mind and they have galvanized you into the person you are today.

Your destiny has carved itself into your bones and burned itself into your flesh.

There is no, nor will there ever be,
rest for the wicked.

Look at the very fabric of your day, at the moving parts and pieces of your life. The ones that seem to effortlessly flow out of you, and for which there is always time regardless of how busy your life is.
The ones that come like breathing.

Look honestly at the recurring thoughts and the inconvenient, maddening, knowing of Truth, you carry with you.
You know which one I’m talking about.
The one that doesn’t budge regardless of how hard you try to rationalize yourself out of it.

These things reveal the code with which you came, or the one that was printed upon you when you were ready to receive her.
When you were strong enough to carry the responsibility and the intensity  of it would no longer harm you.
Oh no, it would excite you!

Or at least; That was the plan.
The plan before you started downplaying, avoiding, covering up and disguising your deepest truth as something that was no longer repulsive and obscene in its brutal honesty. No longer so violently blowing us away, shake us to our core, and divide our lives into before and after.

And I know that with a world filled with real physical violence this is, in particular now, not an easy role to play.
But you are not a bringer of physical violence, not of inequality, not of judgement, and not even of redemption.

What you, Rock Star, need to hear today is that your task was never brutal and violent to begin with.
So there is no reason to be ashamed.

We want you to wake us up with what you have been shown.
And we need it in its original form, without the social veneer, exactly as it was shown to you.

You are not “just” the messenger;
You are the messenger.

~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We meet each other on all levels of Life, but focus on the ones where we are not met by society.
The ones we have to claim as ours, knowing they are our responsibility.

Where we start from knowing the ship of not showing up for our lives sailed long ago!
That the option is no longer on the table.
That the choice was made for us, and that it is our job to act accordingly.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book, email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

Once we know we are a good fit, my price is accepted by you and you choose to make a booking;
We move.

It is possible the above story has already given you an outline of what you want to discuss.

If you think you would benefit from a broader approach, my suggestion will be to sort your story into:

1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet.
A helpful term could be how do things look from the perspective of financial freedom, or worldly freedom.

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?
This is about creative freedom, or even karmic freedom.
Are you free to do the work, that is yours?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?
We investigate if in those areas, the rules you play by are yours, or society’s.
“3” is related to sexual freedom.
Like anything, it is up to you if that is part of our conversation or not.

Because all three points are just a suggestion, they offer a good framework providing one hour for every topic, to go deeper looking for answers.
But the setlist is not fixed.

I have merely built the stage for us, and we have three hours.

It is up for you to take it.

.

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tell them what you had hoped to hide | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 10 01

tell them what you had hoped to hide

Your longing to go all-in is not going to go away.
The option to keep pretending your heart is anywhere else than where it truly is, has expired.

Communicate your availability, and offer your loved ones how you would like to be in their lives.

Never forget that what you’re doing; Hardly anyone is.

And what is hunting you? Haunting you, as soon as you close your eyes after yet another day where at least partially, you got involved in all kinds of things that were not THE thing?
No one, knows the demons emerging from the shadows of your tormented artist soul.

In Indian mythology, the fiercest Goddess is Kali. And the source of her power, the reason of her omnipotence, is because she devours time. With that she will ultimately eat us all.
There is no way to escape her grasp.

The Devi Mahatmya tells of Kali springing from the anger of the goddess Durga to slay the demon Raktabija (“Blood-Seed”).
During the struggle a new demon emerges from each drop of Raktabija’s blood as it hits the ground; to prevent this, Kali laps up the blood before it can reach the ground. 

source: https://www.britannica.com/topic/Kali

Kali’s long tongue is there to protect us from evil, by licking up the demon’s blood. It is not a sign she is evil.
The string of heads around her neck, are the heads of the demons she slayed, because she was born wild and enraged.
Others say the heads symbolize the false identities we adopt, in order to protect our egos. And that it is our job to liberate ourselves from this false sense of Self.

Unleash your wild and enraged part, to slay the build-up of pretend Selfs.
Lick the blood before it touches the ground, to prevent more harm from being done, and remember;
Only your inner-Kali has the tongue to prevent new demonic spawn.

Let her do the work of purifying who you are and protecting what you love.

..
~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We meet each other on all levels of Life, but focus on the ones where we are not met by society.
The ones we have to claim as ours, knowing they are our responsibility.

Where we no longer have the luxury of Not-choosing, because when our time has come we need the peace of mind that we gave it our all.
And that we were able to communicate that, clearly.

That our life was a worthy one, because we lived it on purpose.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book, email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

Once we know we are a good fit, my price is accepted by you and you choose to make a booking;
We move.

It is possible the above story has already given you an outline of what you want to discuss.

If you think you would benefit from a broader approach, my suggestion will be to sort your story into:

1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet.
A helpful term could be how do things look from the perspective of financial freedom, or worldly freedom.

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?
This is about creative freedom, or even karmic freedom.
Are you free to do the work, that is yours?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?
We investigate if in those areas, the rules you play by are yours, or society’s.
“3” is related to sexual freedom.
Like anything, it is up to you if that is part of our conversation or not.

Because all three points are just a suggestion, they offer a good framework providing one hour for every topic, to go deeper looking for answers.
But the setlist is not fixed.

I have merely built the stage for us, and we have three hours.

It is up for you to take it.

.

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only you know the depth you are avoiding | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 09 27

only you know the depth you are avoiding

Challenge yourself to move deeper into your art.
The layer where you are showing up professionally, is not where your growth, expansion and purpose lie.

Practice your craft into uncharted territory. 

When do you think the average human being realizes the way they are spending their time is not representative of, or no longer reflecting, what they really want out of life?
How many Netflix series, social appointments with non-aligned peers, expensive but joyless holidays, or how many new clothes, cars, houses or partners later, before the lightbulb moment that they are living the wrong life?

Now multiple that by a factor somewhere between 2 and 20;
That’s how long it will take us before we realize we are absolutely coasting, when it comes to the work we have properly, and long ago, identified as ours.

With a realistic option of never finding out and staying in that zone where other, more worldly matters or needs, seemed more important.
And our craft will ultimately stagnate at the bare minimum necessary for our identity and the benefits it brings us, financially or otherwise.

The living, breathing relationship we once had with our art, will become a shadow of what it once was, and we risk becoming caricatures.
Not caricatures as humans, at least not as first sight.
We will be more in tune with those around us, more sensitive to their needs and more susceptible to their worry.

But shadow professionals, who just pretend to be the craftsman they once were.

What good can we do, when we may be committed to the work but not to the unexplored depths of it, where the work as the world recognizes it, is no longer distinguishable?

Your commitment is to the wholeness of it, not just to the part you can justify.

..
~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We find each other in wholeness and understanding that there will always be far more we don’t know, than what we do.
That our work, when done well, is done in the presence Unknown.

I offer you my company to take me to the depths you know you cannot ask others to join you.
I will take your lead.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book, email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

Once we know we are a good fit, my price is accepted by you and you choose to make a booking;
We move.

It is possible the above story has already given you an outline of what you want to discuss.

If you think you would benefit from a broader approach, my suggestion will be to sort your story into:

1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet.
A helpful term could be how do things look from the perspective of financial freedom, or worldly freedom.

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?
This is about creative freedom, or even karmic freedom.
Are you free to do the work, that is yours?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?
We investigate if in those areas, the rules you play by are yours, or society’s.
“3” is related to sexual freedom.
Like anything, it is up to you if that is part of our conversation or not.

Because all three points are just a suggestion, they offer a good framework providing one hour for every topic, to go deeper looking for answers.
But the setlist is not fixed.

I have merely built the stage for us, and we have three hours.

It is up for you to take it.

.

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it was never under your command | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 09 24

it was never under your command

You decide what you do with the endless stream of ideas, the urges and the hunches, the inspiration and the passion.

Once picked up, some of them will stay with you for life. Others will leave. Sometimes without you noticing.

“You have the right to work, but for the work’s sake only. You have no right to the fruits of work.”

and

“Work done with anxiety about results is far inferior to work done without such anxiety, in the calm of self-surrender.”

Both from the Bhagavad Gita. (source)

And there is something about not being lazy in there too, but for now I’m just gonna go with the assumption that like your average prolific, poorly understood Rock Star, your art has the potential to devour you if left unexpressed.
That for you, the option of developing a Netflix addiction is not on the table.
Nor under the table, or within a five mile radius of it.

I’m going to label it a case of eating or being eaten, but between you and your art.
So in a very metaphorical, close to biblical Hero-journey kind of way, where every time The Call comes you roll your eyes thinking:

“Oh no! Not again! Please tell me, this one is not for me. I haven’t even gotten my head around the last one!”

But what if you would release any idea of you having to actually do, shape or manage it?
That even your skill and experience are not meant to be what you are relying on right now.
That it wants you in your purest, most receptive state. Not like a vessel, but like a doorway.
A gate from the world of ideas into reality.

In the four years I took my training as a yoga teacher, and a couple of years after when I was still very much living in the yoga world, the world of Ayurveda and of the Bhagavad Gita where the quote is from;
I encountered a strange but beautiful story, multiple times, every time from a different source, about the souls of unborn children.
That they pick you, before you are pregnant.

And that the Wise, who are initiated in this knowledge, can see the soul in your presence before you are pregnant. 
They know that you will soon be.

So welcome every new idea, but do not name it yet nor get attached to its presence.
There is still a long way to go before it is manifested in a recognizable form and even longer before it grows into maturity.

But just like children, our ideas need us as facilitators and as stewards, using skills on the fly we didn’t even know we had.
They need us to be a strong gateway or lay the path for them into the world.

Whether it’s a business idea, a creative idea, an abstract concept;
Whether it’s an activity you’d like to pick up, a country you’re curious about, or an event you think should be organized;

Let the idea come through, and guide it into this world.

We do not know if this is their moment to be manifested in true form, nor do we know how long they will stay on this earth.

And it is not our job to know, either.

..
~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We discuss what it is to be under command of the things coming through;
Not in command.

Even if you think: “But Suzanne doesn’t understand! It’s A LOT! I have no idea what I’m doing or which side is up!”
I know.
Bring all of it, this is the right place.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

Once we know we are a good fit, my price is accepted by you and you choose to make a booking;
We move.

My suggestion will be to sort your story into:
1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet.
A helpful term could be how do things look from the perspective of financial freedom, or worldly freedom.

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?
This is about creative freedom, or even karmic freedom.
Are you free to do the work, that is yours?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?
We investigate if in those areas, the rules you play by are yours, or society’s.
“3” is related to sexual freedom.
Like anything, it is up to you if that is part of our conversation or not.

Because all three points are just a suggestion, they are a good framework providing one hour for every topic, to go deeper looking for answers.
But the setlist is not fixed.

I have merely built the stage for us, and we have three hours.

It is up for you to take it.

.

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give yourself full expansion | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 09 12

give yourself full expansion

You were given the size you were meant to have, to bring what you came here to bring.

To cut, limit, to apologize for who you are and even to soften rough edges;
It is to risk your entire legacy.

A mouse is small, an elephant big and a whale is even bigger. All beings have exactly the size they are meant to have.
And we humans too are all born having certain talents and a personality, all of them developing over time. Until some of us reach a stage where Normal is no longer covering it.

When you are beginning to stand out like a dormouse between the house mice;
An African elephant between Asian ones;
Or a blue whale between the humpbacks.

And regardless if you are sensitive to this animal analogy or not, your job will be to accept this as an unchangeable reality, that will express itself at various moments throughout your life.
And almost exclusively;
In the most inconvenient and unfavorable of ways!

But your being different, your inability to commit to the simplest of tasks, to show up for the smallest things or your sensitivity to the horrendous mundaneness of the daily grind?
Well?
Could it be because perhaps you were born for bigger and bolder things?

That maybe, your expansion lies somewhere else, where all the little things will fall away, or in place, or maybe they go nowhere at all, yet they will lose their relevance.

Move into full expansion of your Blue whale-ness, your African elephant-ness, your dormouse-ness and your Rock Star-ness.

That, is YOUR commitment!

..
~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We discuss what it is to be different, and how to come to terms with what is inevitably, shockingly and brilliantly;
YOU.

Even when that person is right now someone doubting themselves in some key areas; Someone still flirting with succumbing and someone a mystery even to yourself.
Bring them, they are most welcome.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

Once we know we are a good fit, my price is accepted by you and you choose to make a booking;
We move.

My suggestion will be to sort your story into:
1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet.
A helpful term could be how do things look from the perspective of financial freedom, or worldly freedom.

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?
This is about creative freedom, or even karmic freedom.
Are you free to do the work, that is yours?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?
We investigate if in those areas, the rules you play by are yours, or society’s.
“3” is related to sexual freedom.
Like anything, it is up to you if that is part of our conversation or not.

Because all three points are just a suggestion, they are a good framework providing one hour for every topic, to go deeper looking for answers.
But the setlist is not fixed.

I have merely built the stage for us, and we have three hours.

It is up for you to take it.

.

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there is no mistaking if you are called | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 09 06

there is no mistaking if you are called

If you can do something else, and find it joyful and fulfilling;
You are not.

Let me rephrase:
If you can do something else.

“Write like you’re a goddamn death row inmate and the governor is out of the country and there’s no chance for a pardon. Write like you’re clinging to the edge of a cliff, white knuckles, on your last breath, and you’ve got just one last thing to say”
Alan W. Watts

There is more than one writer who holds the belief that writing should have a sense of urgency to it.
That there is no point in doing it, because you want to BECOME, a writer.

You either are or you aren’t.

And what better time to be reminded of that urgency you should feel before getting out there, than today?
When in our modern world even the bakery around the corner uses social media to get their message out. And that’s a business we all support and feel the human(ity) behind it.
It is certainly preferable to having our minds and wallets hacked by AI generated products and commercials.

In today’s landscape, it is so easy to feel shame around supporting your (your!) art and/or your heartfelt business by getting your message out.
It sure as hell requires some balls to be visible as WHO you are and WHAT you are, without hiding behind whatever!

And yet, I am not here to help you to dip your toes in, nor to coach you through the treacherous waters of social media and into the safety of a Patreon account.
I am here to say;
Then you are not called.

And wow, wouldn’t any of us called ones be very happy to trade places with you!
I know I would.
Oh! The wonderfully neutral yoga- or coaching business I could build.
The soft and gentle life, revolving about self-care and small adventures I could have!!

🤗

And I bet Alan Wilson Watts would love to trade places with a non-called one too:

“Take a deep breath and tell us your deepest, darkest secret, so we can wipe our brow and know that we’re not alone.
Write like you have a message from the king. Or don’t.
Who knows, maybe you’re one of the lucky ones who doesn’t have to.”

― Alan Wilson Watts

So when you know, you know.

Either you have options to get your message out or you do not.

When your message tries to cut itself a way out of your heart every time you deny it, and your only choice is between letting it out – where fear of the external consequences to being visible is the least of your worries compared to the turmoil going on inside! –
or getting drugs strong enough to shut the shrieking inner voice down.

The good news is that if you are called, unlike others “in today’s world”;
You no doubt have what it takes to take that message where it belongs!

Out there.
On a stage.
The biggest one you can find without being thrown in jail.

And even then, you’ll at least consider it.

.
~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We discuss what it is to know you have a calling.
To have work to do, no one understands.
And I’m not even going to suggest that I do understand it, but I am comfortable in not-knowing, and in my own ignorance.
So bring it all.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

Once we know we are a good fit, and I have told you the price and you have  made the booking final;
We move.

My suggestion will be to sort your story into:
1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet.
A helpful term could be how do things look from the perspective of financial freedom, or worldly freedom.

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?
This is about creative freedom, or even karmic freedom.
Are you free to do the work, that is yours?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?
We investigate if in those areas, the rules you play by are yours, or society’s.
“3” is related to sexual freedom.
But like anything, it is up to you if that is part of our conversation or not.

Because all three points are just a suggestion, they can be a good framework. We would then have one hour for every topic, to go deeper looking for answers.

But following today’s death row letter analogy, and image of hanging by the cliff and your last words, I guess I could have made it shorter today!

What is it, you really want to say?

 

.

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it is time to burn what you know | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today 2023 09 04

it is time to burn what you know

Where you are going no one can help you, not even you.
Let go.

Today was quite possibly the most important day of the year, if not the last two decades.
Finally, the last revelations came and a new truth was revealed.

The truth I saw was incredibly potent, heartwarming and to be honest there was an intellectual, ego-driven part in me that wanted to write this down!
This- which proved I had been right all along.

About male and female energy.
About yoga.
About mentoring.
About the world.
Capitalism, financial success, and the blueprints leading there.

If I would write this down, I would not only have an explanation for my own past 25 years;
But for every problem I could ever encounter and in all probability-
what anybody else would encounter.

If I could just give that brain of mine one extra squeeze!!
Pen in hand, this time.

Until it hit me- no.

I was going to say no to this.

I was going to soak up this moment of all-knowing, this perfection of insight and then I was going to do the literally unthinkable;
Let it all go.

Because although this work of analyzing into the deepest depths, has made today the most profound day I ever recall having;
It has had its purpose.

Knowledge, whether from others or our own, is not meant to be held on to. Not by us, the artists and creators of this world.

Your unfinished projects, your unfulfilled promises, your unpublished works, and your unsold art;
Your finished projects, your fulfilled promises, your published work and your sold art;

Let go.

Your work is now.

~Suzanne

THE ROCK STAR, is Catacombe’s signature 3 hour session.
We discuss not what we know, but what you bring to our fire.
Whatever you have been carrying, will be the meat and bones of our conversation.

My suggestion in advance will be to sort it into:
1. the earthly plane
Your possessions, worldly matters, income streams, worries and responsibilities you fear you can’t meet

2. your purpose
What is the work you love doing, what are the moments big or small, that you know you are aligned. Has God told you, what you’re here for?

3. your Rock Star expansion
What is the fullest expression you are here to bring?
And what are the areas you’re playing small, as if cut off from your powers?

But whatever you do with that suggestion, is up to you.
My job is to listen, and I do that well.

THE ROCK STAR is a one-time investment, and our conversation is confidential.

To book email me at:
s_beenackers@hotmail.com

Terms and conditions at:
https://catacombenijmegen.com/terms-conditions/

.

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You were called Star for a reason, Rock Star | 2023 08 10

It is currently the most popular movie in cinemas around the world, and it is about a doll living in her own perfect world.
She sees herself forced leave it, to correct things in the real world.
Things that were interfering with what she saw as her perfect life.

Close to the end of the movie, you will see Barbie realizing she is not a real person but an idea.
Which is why she has eternal life, infinite endings and infinite possibilities.

“While humans have only one ending,” she is informed by someone who wants her to stay grounded, in a moment where Barbie gives her imagination free rein in all she could do and be as a human.

What stood out most for me, out of all the reasons Barbie said had her leaning towards wanting a real life, was when she said she wanted to be the creator.
Not the created.

Barbie wanted to create, and she knew that in order to do that, she would have to leave Barbieland.
And for good this time, not just to repair a rip in the curtain between the two worlds.

But the human world is also the world of having a limited life span, and seemingly unlimited emotions, chaos and change.
Something that is also pointed out to her.

And in this metaphor I pondered a bit, over where Rock Stars fit in.

Are we living in an “idea”-lized world, by the grace of those who believe in us and project their dreams and desires onto us?
In whatever profession we may be rocking, because we’re not all musicians.
The answer is:
Yes.
There is definitely a part of us, and it may not be as small, humble, and altruistic as we would like it to be, that only comes to life the moment others “use” us, to step into their highest power.
Like girls use the Doctor-Barbie or Pilot Barbie to step into their power.

But having said that, are we not also the creators of our own universe?
Unlike Barbie, are we not both the Mattel of our Rock Star Life, as well as the Barbie who then plays in it?
Undoubtedly;
Yes.
At least we are, if all goes well.

And if it doesn’t, if our autonomy and our creator-ship is not included in the deal, we end up like anyone famous and rich who doesn’t have agency over their own work;
Drugging ourselves one way or the other.
It can even have the form of working really hard, and fully identifying us with the very identity that took our true selves away.
Simply because we do not have a life left, to return to.

A Rock Star is someone who gambles big, on being their most autonomous self, and allowing their message of freedom to fully express;
But whom in doing so runs the same risk as Barbie does, which is to be run by corporations and by people who project not just their biggest dreams but also their frustrations, onto you.

Barbie does not just understand the power of being a creator;
She also understands that she does not have any say in whether people project their biggest dreams or their biggest frustrations onto her.

All Barbies in Barbieland are just one rough play session away from being turned into “weird Barbie” with cut hair and marker all over her face.

Rock Stars, like all inspirators and influencers and anyone visible in the media, must learn to navigate the forces that come at us, when things get rough.
And here is a truth the movie does not even get close to addressing;
None of us can go out and repair every rip in the curtain, nor can we really do something about incidents where people projecting their frustrations onto us, any more than Weird Barbie could.
“It’s okay I own it,” Weird Barbie says, when President Barbie apologizes for having called her Weird Barbie.

Owning it, is largely all we can do if things between us and those loving our work, and rooting for us, have gone wrong.
And ditto when things between us and those hating us and wanting to see us fail, have escalated.

Rock Stars are in many ways just as vulnerable as a Barbie doll.
And we do not even have a safe Barbieland/ Rock Star land to give us a moment’s rest and believe we can live “the best day of our lives every day”.
In a physical sense we are in the real world 24/7, without roller blading, taking the snow scooter, a camper van, a rocket and a pink Cadillac to take us to another dimension.

We live in the here and the now, and yet I am here to tell you;
No, you don’t.

And the reason you are unlike many if not most of the people you know;
Not even the same as those you may call peers;
Is because you know you are also, partially, idea

You know that before you became who you are, you created yourself in your mind. The “You” people think is you, was the you that was created by you.
Just like everything that was created by you, and that will be created by you, was created first in your head, with an idea.

And that is why not only would it be impossible to talk things through and concern yourself with, anyone having issues with you;
Not only would it feel like your soul was sucked right out of you, if you tried to explain yourself, make amends, try to level and be nice in order to be liked and the peace returning to your real-life world;
But it is also NOT where you are meant to be.

It is against God, if you ask me.

So if your once tiptoed feet are suddenly flat on the ground, put on some leather boots.
If you’re having irrepressible thoughts of death, welcome them with all your heart.
If your body starts showing signs of wear and tear, do not travel to another dimension to fix your thighs.

Stay put!
And this is where you go, Rock Star.

You go into the spiritual realm.
The dimension where all your dreams once started, and where all your new ideas will come from too.
Your body is in the real world, yes, but your spirit is not.
Nor should it ever be.

Because you were born on the earth, but you are not of the earth. And you never will be. If you have come this far in this blog post then know that no matter how many people played too rough with you, cut your hair, or burdened you with their irrepressible thoughts of death;
They say nothing about you.

And we need you to stay up there, with your mind in the stars.

Your job is not to come meet us over here, rolling through the mud of our emotions;
Your job is to get up as high as you can!!

And shine.

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~Suzanne
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You were called Star for a reason, Rock Star
| 2023 08 10
is the thirteenth Catacombe Rock Star post
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THE ROCK STAR

Which is a fully-confidential conversation based on equality, respect, and me being there with you at the beginning or, if so required;
At the end, of all things. 

My setup is to have it be three hours:
-one for your earthly possessions, your business, your money. Anything you feel binds you to this world, or that you long to manifest in it, in the most tangible way.
-one hour for your art, your purpose, your calling, that what you know you are meant to do and be
and hour 3
– for your body, your energy, your creativity and sexuality in its fully expressed form.

Like a star in the night’s sky, a Rock Star leads the way.
To being free.

Then let the day fall by the wayside, Rock Star | 2023 06 24 The day after

Exactly one year ago, I woke up in an elegant and fully booked hotel, or so they had warned me would be the case because even 16 months in advance, they could see coming there would be three events in and around Groningen, all in the same week.
If I wanted a room an early booking would be required and I would not get any money back if I would cancel.

The pandemic with its dramatic drop in bookings and its high rate of cancellations, had tightened the windows for anyone looking for a room, but this hotel, understandably, had really took the time to reverse engineer their methods to make sure that whatever liabilities they had been covering for, were now with their guests.

And when I arrived 16 months later, the hotel indeed had been fully booked for over half a year.

The day after, Groningen, 24 June 2022.
A hotel right next to the park of the concert location.
I woke up so unbelievably sick from having been on my feet the entire day before, and standing at the rail of a Guns N’ Roses concert the day prior.
All I could think was “never again” and “Oh God”.
I barely ate breakfast, which is saying something because I always eat huge ones, in particular in hotels.

I didn’t regret attending, because to this day I think it may have been the best day of my entire life.
But I was happy to start the journey home, feel better on my way home already, and have the rest of the afternoon and night to recover.

Thirty years prior, I had also woken up in a hotel.
The Hilton, in Rotterdam!
Next to Central Station, so it was very practical.

But this one I had not booked months in advance, because I had been saving for it, Dutch guilder by guilder, taking it from my shopping budget every week, or whenever it fell into my pocket somehow.
And when I had 360 guilder I booked the hotel, about a month prior I think. By telephone and perhaps confirming by fax.

Then too, I woke up the day after a Guns N’ Roses concert, but the mood could not have been more different.
Just like I would 30 years after, I had been on my feet the entire day, and due to logistical and a medical problem (as we learned decades later through Google!) the band had been on stage hours later, in Rotterdam, The Netherlands.
23 June 1992

Contrary to what seems to have turned into one of the unshakable truths of the 90s, Guns N’ Roses being late in Rotterdam was not antagonistic nor a statement of rebellion, nor were there issues with local authorities.
Who would actually be thanked from the stage.

The atmosphere had been amazing, but boy what a long day that was!
And just like 30 years later, the sun had shone, mercilessly, all day. But this time I had been in it, whereas standing first row will protect you from the sun because of the shadow from the stage.
In many ways 1992, had been more intense than 2022.

In 1992 I had been standing in the sun, did not have a rail to lean on, yet I had gone out to get a drink in town after arriving in the hotel and taking a shower late at night.
In the morning I was still so happy and
I stayed and hung out with new people I had met the night before.

I did not head home until 2, 3 in the afternoon, and I remember being;
Exhilarated.
Thrilled.
High, but of excitement, nothing chemical.

The difference between going to Guns N’ Roses and then sleeping in a hotel, thirty years apart, could not have been more stark!

And yet both times I thought:
“Yesterday 23 June, was the best day of my life.”

And here I am, one year after waking up in Groningen.
Thirty years after waking up in Rotterdam.
One day after making an important decision.

I woke up groggy from a series of events that have been going through my mind for weeks now. And yesterday I made a very important decision.
I broke up with something, understood I had to let it go. But instead of waking up happy, I woke up feeling horrible.

And I wondered how it is possible that I feel so groggy, so sick, when I DID NOT, go to a Guns N’ Roses concert yesterday!
Was I that old?!
That I now wake up like this, for making decisions about things in my life that are no longer fitting?
Do I now get hangovers from what I would call the natural rocking, of life?

But this is my message to you, Rock Star:
These hangovers?
Whether because you drank, or because you’ve been standing in the sun, on your feet all day, or because apparently things have been bothering you like in my case?
This grogginess?
It is a good sign.

Just like me remembering to be so excited 30 years ago, unstoppable, intensely happy 30 years ago, was a good sign too.

And just like when you have sex and afterwards, when they are gone and you are alone, the emptiness, the neediness, the clinginess, smack you in the face?
It’s all a good sign.

It is a sign something amazing happened. Something moved you, something GOT to you.
And we will not always have the luxury of it being planned, and of having the day off.
But we always have the ability to notice that we feel so overtaxed, not able to eat breakfast, or lonely to the bone.  
That a big black hole is consuming us, and yet we cannot make ourselves connect because the emptiness has already made its way into our hearts.

But know, my beloved Rock Star, that it means you’re still alive.
Something amazing happened to you, as you were shaken, whether expected or taken by surprise.
You were literally rocked.
Which is so much better in so many ways, than being lulled to sleep. So much better, than living under a lie of convenient lies and a planned life.

Feeling horrible means first and foremost you have NOT lost your ability to FEEL.
You still, have your biggest asset.
Your emotions.

But having said all that?
If you can?
If you somehow do have the luxury of taking time off to integrate, to process, to feel your feelings and get a better understanding of why this one hit you so hard?

Then let this day fall by the wayside, Rock Star.

.
~Suzanne
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Then let the day fall by the wayside, Rock Star
| 2023 06 24 The day after
is the twelfth Catacombe Rock Star post
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Permission to sell granted, Rock Star | 2023 05 23: Specify. Sell. Repeat.

The past couple of weeks, I have been coasting.
Hiding.
I’ve been absent here.

I have been doing the exact thing I always say you should not be doing, if you want to build a business, which is;
To not show up.

Or, to simplify:
Show up -> builds business
Not show up -> does not build business

And I’m not talking about showing up for already paying clients and for already running programs and projects, but specifically about showing up PUBLICLY.
And show up SELLING.

Most independents have not build their business around the act of selling.
They are built around the practice of doing, of executing the work.
A yoga teacher has built their business around teaching yoga, not selling it.
A graphic designer around designing, not selling it.
And even many “real” businesses, meaning not one person but multiple people working there, are designed around offering the opportunity to buy a product, not around selling them.

Or the independents or businesses work around very lengthy, complicated , political, behind-the-scenes projects that run for months before any deal is sealed, let alone before anyone gets paid.

The art of selling, and of investing in something you can easily and happily sell everyday, is an underrated one.
But it is one of the very few things that will guarantee your success and even survival under the most radically changing conditions.
Because the time it will take before you find out your average monthly sales are not made, or your year total has severely dropped, will always be a lot longer than if you are used to handling daily or weekly sales totals.

And if you have long lead times, the number of things you have tried to adapt to the new circumstances, and get your business up and running again, will always be significantly lower than if you get feedback from your sales numbers every day.

Having monthly or quarterly sales (instead of daily sales) means you do not have your fingers in the pie;
It puts you at incredible financial risk.

Now, I know there are entire industries based on these long, business-to-business processes of selling one-million dollar software systems and so on.
I know.
Not going to get into that, just hope I made my point that it is worth giving it your best shot to find something that allows you to break away from that, and get cash-flow you can manage daily.
Instead of praying to the Gods your five big clients will do their side of the deal this year.

If not selling daily because you are partial to only having a few big clients  is “big player syndrome”, then there is another reason not to sell daily which can be found in particular with service providers on the consumer market:
Small player syndrome.

The idea that you are not allowed to ask more than others in your industry, and that you are there primarily to serve your clients, and not to sell or make money.

Aside from the psychological reasons behind small player syndrome- which are understandable because it does require you to be visible and stand out from “the tribe”- it is important to realize that not providing for “your company” financially, is a dangerous game.
If your business does not survive, you cannot serve your clients either. So you may want to reconsider, or think of other ways to fund your business f.e. patrons & donations.

But there is more at stake.

Money is the bloodline not just of your business, but of your industry as a whole.
Everything your industry stands for, the message it is here to bring, the  good you are here to do, the lineage you are here to continue from the teachers or artists who came before you and everybody you personally owe for what it is you know, or everybody who has built the business or industry before you;
You are putting it all in jeopardy.

The voice that is going to survive, the system that is going to survive, the skillsets that are going to survive, the craftmanship that is going to survive, the businesses and the industries that will stand the test of time;
Are the ones that make money.

And to do that, for you to have a healthy business or for an industry to stand the test of time, you/ your industry needs to do two things:
1. it needs to sell things
and
2. it needs to sell different things when the market changes.
This second point is what is referred to as a change in business model. For example taking a service from brick and mortar business to online.

If you or your industry have “small business syndrome” you’re not taking selling under (1) seriously.
You’re facilitating that people can buy from you, if they would really look into it, but you’re not creating opportunities for them to see you and immediately making it clear what they can buy or how they can work with you.
You’re not actively and creatively engaging in the act of selling.

And if you or your industry are “big player syndrome” sufferers, with only a few big clients, you are not hands-on enough in your sales to notice your current offer is no longer selling.
That something has changed and that you should be finding out what, and adjust accordingly.

Having a daily sales routine is a healthy habit, and very effective to combat both small- as well as big player syndrome.

Daily selling puts you in that driver’s seat, with your eyes on the road and you’ll build your feel for the market each day, every day.
Instead of putting it on autopilot and finding out months or years later.

The reason I was absent from selling, and from this site, is because I am starting a new Dutch business. For my yoga no less!
An industry where even the biggest players have fallen, and most never even get started to begin with.
If I would get a penny out of every dollar spent on unused yoga teacher training certificates, word wide?
I would never have to work again.

So it took some time to figure out, how to get it right this time. How to build a yoga business that will be profitable.
A business with a healthy flow of money, that will survive anything that is thrown at it.

But it all came down to one thing. And it’s the same thing that will guarantee your success, regardless of what industry you are in;
Find something you can sell.

Not four times a year to four big clients.
Not by opening your doors and waiting for people to walk in who are exactly looking for your service or product. 
Not by being a friendly neighborhood whatever, who is uncomfortable wearing their professional boots.

Find something you can sell;
And sell it every day.

Repeat.

.
~Suzanne
become the Rock Star you were born to be

Every week I offer 1 or 2 spots to an entrepreneur, artist or Rock Star who wants to break the chains of their industry and design their own unique offer; NOW!
It is called Specify. Sell. Repeat. and I sell it every week, on my socials:
Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, and LinkedIn

Specify. Sell. Repeat.

A SESSION JUST FOR YOU

A one-on-one workshop for you, artist, professional, creative or entrepreneur.
You are already deeply in love with what you do, but the financial result?
Not so much.
Yet!

In one 2 hour session, we’re going to extract the service or product you would love to sell, and under the conditions that suite your agenda.

It is called:
Specify. Sell. Repeat.
And it is not in my standard offerings- it will be scheduled weekly, on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, and LinkedIn.

The introductory price of “Specify. Sell. Repeat.” is € 297, which is again not something I usually share because Catacombe works with full confidentiality, including its prices.

But it demonstrates what it looks like to make your offers specific;
Specify a what (a 2 hour session), when (next week), and the price.

For your business we’re going to look for something that’s:
🎯 in your zone of genius
📏 can be made specific (what, when, how)
💎delivers clear value to your client
🌊And is powerful yet effortless

In “Specify. Sell. Repeat.” we’re taking what it is you love doing, and design it into a service or product.
A true gem, that you would love to sell daily;
Creating happy customers, and a happy you!

Let’s create your ready-to-sell offer, and email me at
s_beenackers@hotmail.com
Include a link to your current company website, or website as an independent; or a social platform you actively use for business.

Your application always remains confidential and if I can help you, we start right away.
All applications are treated with respect and dignity.

I look forward to seeing you.

You got this!

~Suzanne
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Permission to sell granted, Rock Star
| 2023 05 23: Specify. Sell. Repeat.
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