it is never the thing you need to think about

What is yours to create, flows out of you like a river to the ocean or comes crashing down, with waterfall-like urgency.
It are the things you keep thinking about like a lover you do not allow yourself to have.

Yes, of course, in theory?
You can wall all that off!

Hooray!
Now tell me, where did Life go?

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I had what I would call a Journaling Incident, and it was about as disturbing as when something goes wrong with sex.
Even when all it was, was just the two of you pushing things, hungry for each other and for a bigger thrill;
It will still have consequences.

There needs to be a going back to square one, after an incident.
An acknowledgement from both sides:
“Okay, this happened, but we’re still here for each other.”

I have not journaled since, but I did spend some time thinking about it and “we’re good now”, me and my journaling practice.
I actually found it intriguing that there had been more at stake than I used to think there was.
But apparently, just like with sex: Journaling has an element of danger.
The hallmark of any emotionally charged expressions of Self.

Just like your art.
You can’t control the outcome, anymore than sex or journaling, and you may miss the mark sometimes. If you didn’t, it wouldn’t be art.

So now back to the title at hand:
“it is never the thing you need to think about”

Just like with sex, or committing to a relationship, anyone you need to think about and talk yourself into liking, or start putting conditions around? 
Ah, ah!
Not the person you want to be with, clearly.
We’re looking for rivers, waterfalls and avalanches.
Not dripping taps.

Years ago, I identified a rarely talked about factor, in harmful sexual encounters;
It is if we want all parties to understand what a No is?
We need to start respecting the Yes!

As long as we do not honor that two people having a deep sexual desire for each other, is something beautiful, and to be celebrated;
We will keep having trouble with No’s being interpreted, or someone getting away with interpreting it as, a Yes.

In other words:
Is your creativity, your art, the thing you were put here for on this earth, is it a safe bet with a certain outcome?
No.
Could you end up making a mistake and hurting people?
Yes.

But regardless, Rock Star, what else are you gonna do?

You can spend your life working on projects with a certain outcome, and limit yourself to planning instead of allowing free flow journaling like I did.
Just like you can choose to spend it in a good-enough relationship, that constantly needs adjusting because the two of you lack, or no longer have, the natural alignment of values, of dreams, of communication styles, of whatever.

Or, alternatively:
You can start saying Hell Yes!!!

To the projects, the ideas, the people, and the creative endeavors that are already banging at your door every morning.
And you could let them in, in your bathrobe, and you two would have such a good time, creatively or otherwise.

They’re already galloping through your mind, and you could take them out for a spin at lunch.

They’re already waiting for you, when you get home at night, and you could just make a sandwich and get to work together.

They’re already there with you in your dreams, every night, all night.

Stop putting mind and effort in the maybes, the perhaps, the ifs, the on-the-conditions-thats.

When there is an infinite whole world of Hell Yesses waiting for you!

~Suzanne Beenackers
Catacombe
become the Rock Star you were born to be

it is never the thing you need to think about
was the 8th episode of What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today

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