Author: Suzanne Beenackers

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We travelled unsupervised | Share Your Work 2025 09 08

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I don’t have any pictures to go by, nor can I refer to my agenda because I always covered every page with perfume commercials and other glossy 80s clippings, as soon as the week was over.
But I know I was young, very young.

Yet, I was one of the hundreds of thousands of teens who bought a card to travel the country by train, on a shoestring budget.
And pre-mobile phone, so largely untraceable.

And it was actually meant for very young teens.
I remember this because there was also the follow-up card, which was to travel internationally.
This one was way more expensive, probably due to international collaboration with railway companies who had little to gain from grooming Dutch teens into becoming lifelong train users.
The international card for young adults was less popular, but I think it did help to get the national one more accepted, since it downgraded it basically to a baby card!
Something no parent could refuse.

The best practice at the time was that parents were left a travel schedule, containing sleep-over addresses of their offspring, in particular if it were relatives of the friend you were traveling with, and not their own.

The days of free traveling were a tremendous confidence boost for any teen who was given this chance.

And in retrospect, I think this can be traced back to two reasons.

First of all, it showed you were deemed responsible enough to travel alone.
It was a vote of confidence from your parents, in your capabilities.

And secondly, because of this, it also provided you with a protective umbrella.
Teens who did this were not runaways, nor lost.
The card provided you with the status of a real traveler, who was backed by both parents as well as Dutch Railways.
That, is powerful.

And it makes me think of all the situations where we have started measuring exclusively to the benchmark of SAFETY.

Losing sight of values like personal power, resilience and growth.

Values like standing on your own two feet.
And taking on the world.

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give us something real | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today

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give us something real

We don’t care for the polished, the post-productioned, the copy-edited and the filter that took a decade off your face.

Show us the nitty gritty.

—

For years, yes, actual years (I know you probably won’t believe me) I’ve struggled publishing a book that will be my magnum opus.
I did not write it under this name, so I probably should not even tell you this because it’s secretive, not transparent, and then the status of what you should be doing with this information becomes unclear as well.
The point, Rock Star.
The point!

You, reading advice from someone telling only half a story?
That’s the kind of messy not-fitted-for-your-brand randomness we’re craving to see from you.

As I was saying, for years now, I’m struggling with this book.
And it’s tempting to suggest it’s the psychological weight of it, because it’s about a man who broke up with me years ago.
But No!
I’m simply really bad at copy editing, and at getting big projects like this done.

I don’t have a mold for it, and it took me a decade after I started writing, before I had my first book in print.

And nothing changed as I’m still terribly slow and I have dropped this project so often I could cry if I think about all the lost time.
It’s probably even barricading my love life to have this unfinished manuscript blocking anything that wants to come in.

But want to know my biggest mistake?
This whole idea of copy-editing, this slow as a snail process I am making myself go through.

Embarrassed, every time I find errors.
And I find a lot.
And I find them again when after 3 years I look at the first chapter which has already been edited six times prior.

It’s like pulling teeth!!!
PERFECTLY GOOD TEETH

Because that creepy sketch you drew drunk in the middle of the night?

That photo you took, when your lens broke down because it had sand in it?

The diary with all the random entries?

Give. It. To. Us. 

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Rock Star Take On MESSAGE | The New Rock Star Channel (new video)

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Rock Star Take On MESSAGE
| The New Rock Star Channel
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With a new format:
– 10 minute video
– no preparation

This week, the thirteenth video.
A Rock Star Take On MESSAGE

—
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2 Rock Star Things That Took Me 25 Years To Find Out
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The New Rock Star Channel
—

In this video;

1. We’re back! 00:00
With another episode of a Rock Star Take On.
And this time the topic is MESSAGE

We rebooted this series a few weeks ago.
Changes that were made are:
– Vids are now 10 minutes.
– And I go in without preparation.

2. How I got The Message 00:45
I didn’t really understand the whole concept of messaging, until about ten years ago.
But looking back, I can assure you, your Message is not as important as it is said out to be.
For many sectors and situations having a message is irrelevant.

3. Local Businesses 01:24
Message? Usually entirely irrelevant! Hear me out! 😉

4. Public services 03:20
Again, you can do without a message.
Illustrated with the situation in The Netherlands where unfortunately the difference between public and commercial has become murkier with every decade.

5. Commercial & working on the Consumer market 05:37
This is the only situation where a message (or marketing) becomes relevant.
(and not business-to-business)

6. But what makes it Rock Star?! 06:40
What would a Rock Star message be then?
It is here where a Rock Star really has the competitive advantage because, they have it all mapped out.
Because, they already are their message.
Because, they only have one value and not a 1000 contradictory things.

A Rock Star is the embodiment of one, singular message:
Freedom.

Therefor, the next stop is Rock Star Take On
FREEDOM!

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your vision board speaks | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today

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your vision board speaks

From the thoughts endlessly mulled over and chewed on
To the unsatisfactory photo where the model didn’t have your hair color
And the random clippings that had a pleasant aesthetic and were (you were sure of this!) without meaning

Your inner-world craft a spell of them.
—

I saw it from the corner of my eye.

The laminated A4 had been used as the backcover to a binder I used to collect my most important blogs in.
Posts I did not want to forget.

Until there were so many of them that even the biggest ring I had for my binding machine, could no longer hold them.
I started a new volume and archived this one on the shelves next to my window.

And as I looked out the window contemplating what I would write today, I saw the old vision board.
Holding on to years of my most important blogs for me.
Which of course, I all forgot.

I took it off the shelves and my eyes went over the landscape A4 of the collage, and wondered what year it was from.
Because my dreams had always been the same.
My role models were unchanging, although every five to ten years or so a new one could be added.
The collage depicted both pictures of me as well as different female stars, all representing different areas of my life.
And pictures of male stars, sometimes together with a woman, representing the men in my life and then the woman represented me.

All of this was eternal.

Yet where I had tried to be specific in what I wanted, I had failed to achieve it.

On the inside of the back cover, so the back of the vision board, I had made a complementary blueprint of how to become that woman on the vision board.
It has blogs and channels and ideas on it, I dropped ages ago.

Signed on the day this quest would begin:
Independence Day 2021

As if my dreams required a battle plan in order to be conquered.

But on the front, every photo with every woman;
Still me.

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There was nobody there | Share Your Work 2025 08 25

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It is a crossover between a museum and a theme park. But unless you live in the Netherlands and also have children, you have probably never visited the Dutch Railway Museum in Utrecht.

When we arrived there was almost no one there. It was still early, 10 AM on a Saturday.
But if you’d arrive at a theme park on the first train which arrives just as the gates open, the train would have been cramped and upon arrival you’d have to go straight to the most popular rides to make the most out of that first hour when there are fewer people in the park.

But we had none of that.

The train was quiet, which was a relief after total chaos and mayhem we’d had on the other lines to Utrecht.
And in the quiet museum the large food court was already ready to serve us, despite there only being a handful of visitors yet.
It was like heaven, if heaven was a theme park that welcomed guests with a cup of well-earned coffee and a remedial bagel.
The dark rides and thrill rides could wait.

After that we were still in time to be among the only ones in the ride which had brought me there, The Trial By Fire Ride.
The reason I wanted to go there, was because the script of two centuries of train history, was written and narrated by the late Rutger Hauer.
He was actively involved in creating it and can be seen in a long video at the beginning of the ride.

The ride itself is a train simulator which, coincidence or not, also rides through a Bladerunner-like futuristic landscape at high speed.

At the museum the best displays can often be found in the entrance halls and queuing areas.
So you can read them while you wait.
But the disadvantage is that if you would choose to not do a certain ride, you also miss out on these beautiful vintage displays.
And on Rutger Hauer teaching on trains.

I think the museum has clearly been betting on two horses, which means you’ll never be one for the masses.

But you could be the only one Holland’s biggest movie star has ever graced with their presence.

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the work is done for you | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today

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the work is done for you

Whether you post every day or never, regardless of the type of art you make or “even” when you “just” do you and feel creatively aligned that way;
It’s all exactly as it should be.

It’s the story you are here to tell.
—

Over the past nine months I have witnessed my creativity shrink from doing whatever I wanted to being chained to a meticulously orchestrated content planner, making optimal use of my limited time.

Creativity had to give, because I needed more space for other things.
It was a long and strenuous process, but ultimately I hacked it.

And now that I have it all contained and timeboxed, I am surprised by how much I like it.
Unexpectedly, this planning has turned out to be a huge success.
It’s such a relief to no longer be writing by the seat of my pants.
This feels much more gentle and luxurious, like a spa.

But it does make me wonder, how is this possible?

How can someone who always allowed herself to spill the story the moment it was hot and needed to be told with urgency, how can I trade that for becoming the train conductor version, writing pieces scheduled days in advance;
And not miss any of it?

Am I even still an artist now that I run a content production line?

But the strange thing is, my videos and posts appear to have gotten better.
There is no loss of spontaneity or dullness or anything.

And I’m more consistent.
I’ve cherry picked the easiest pieces, and dropped all items that take 5 hours. Without knowing how to ever put them back into my schedule, so there was a price.

But overall, yeah!
Love it!

But then I realized that the reason I feel it’s “all” still there, is because the essence of our work and our message is never ours to begin with.
It is given.

What you call your work, is actually handed to you, by purpose, from calling,  or by some invisible Force.

Whether you have 8 hours or 2 to create a piece?
It is all the same to them.

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Rock Star Take On SEXUALITY | The New Rock Star Channel (new video)

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Rock Star Take On SEXUALITY
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A Rock Star Take On SEXUALITY

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The New Rock Star Channel
—

In this video;

1. We’re back! 00:00
With another episode of a Rock Star Take On.
And this time the topic is SEXUALITY.
Which will become a seasonal thing to counter all the heavy, dryer topics!
This is the 2025 Summer edition.

We rebooted this series a few weeks ago.
Changes that were made are:
– Vids are now 10 minutes.
– And I go in without preparation.

Which also means I didn’t watch the previous Rock Star Take on SEXUALITY.
Doesn’t mean you can’t.
Watch it here: https://youtu.be/PluuNhxFT_k
Rock Star Take On SEXUALITY
6 Jan 2025

2. It’s your GIFT to the world! 02:04
Which is a very uncomfortable truth (Trust me, I know!) but hear me out.
Because Rock Star you are and always have been, a symbol of Freedom.
Well, freedom of what, if not society’s relentless repression of our sexuality?

As opposed to other artists, a Rock Star does not lead with their creative expression;
They lead by owning their sexuality.

3. This work is YOURS 05:17
It’s not about advocating for sexuality, nor theorizing about it.
(I’m walking on thin ice with this video, I know!)
Instead, a Rock Star’s job is to be an actual physical embodiment of sexual power.

You liberate by who you are.

4. The temptation of Normal 06:22
The struggle is real!
There is something so alluring to keeping this part of yourself hidden and do work and have roles where we are a dime-a-dozen worker bee or that ambitious goalgetter who gets a lot of respect.
And by all means, give yourself that!!

But always remember those comfortable roles are not why you are here.
Those moments are a luxury, and they are not your highest work.

5. The Sex Card 08:46
You’ve been dealt a hand of cards, and this one really is yours.
Not a popular card, no one would choose it because it has such low status.
But if you’ve got it, you’ve got it.

And for good reason……

6. It’s how your purpose gets done 10:23
Your sexual power is supposed to go into your full creative expression.
It was given to you, to fuel your message and let your art reach the people it is supposed to reach.

In conclusion, a Rock Star’s sexuality is both the medium, as well as the message.

Therefor, the next stop is Rock Star Take On
MESSAGE!

It will go out on this blog.
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bargain a better deal | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today

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bargain a better deal 

The danger is never in overpaying for things you really want;
It’s in giving your time, attention and emotional labor, where no agreement was ever made.

—

“Hell, it’s everywhere, isn’t it?!”
I have no idea if I have actually said this out loud, but I’ve thought it.

Because the bad news is that once you have transformed one area of your life, stripped down all layers of socially conditioned paint and veneer
– but not before testing it for lead!
Because you know very well the majority dates from before the 70s when they took this toxic ingredient out-
– the lead-reference serving not just as an instruction to refurbish your vintage furniture, but also a metaphor of the most toxic ingredients being taken out of social conditioning in the 70s-
– just saying!-
And you repair all the damaged wood, and pamper it with oil or wax and new coloring, and you’re just so proud when that whole area of your life is finally shining as a one of a kind original!

When?
Oh no….fuck…..
Yes, Rock Star.
A whole different area of your life falling apart.

With that little corner piece shining bold and bright, it is suddenly painfully obvious how bland, old, out-of-use and dangerously unattended to other parts of your life are.

Absolute relics, and from a life you cannot remember ever agreeing to.

Once you redo one area of your life, you will find all other areas are like brown, mid- 20th century furniture with lead paint and BROKEN LOCKS (this was again a metaphor), dusting away in your basement or shed.
Meaning taking up space in the margins of your life, where other people dumped them, or you took them on board without questioning.

And now they’re…..there.

Want to know who put them there?
Throw out those beliefs on who you owe whatever, or on what was right and wrong in 1953, and find out.

The ones who object to you throwing it out;
They, put them there.

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It’s All You, Rock Star | Share Your Work 2025 08 11

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Last weekend, a visit to a museum I had been looking forward to, fell through.
Train traffic to the area had been cancelled due to maintenance.

The reason I wanted to visit was because they currently have an exhibition on Erotica, which is a topic that has fascinated me even before it was age appropriate.

Credit to my parents, because although they were never part of the Flower Power movement, which did the heavy lifting of cracking open suffocating moral standards that dated back to the dark ages;
They were modern and up to date in their beliefs. 

I did not, nor do, consider our family anywhere near the sexual frontier of liberation, but there was absolutely a fair amount of space to develop myself.
And my love for erotica, in some shape or form, was an integral part of that.

So when the visit to the expo fell through, I was disappointed.
But I decided to go ahead and create something for myself.

In one day, I came up with a homemade vintage erotica exposition.

I visited a thrift store, as well as a vintage store on wheels.
Supplemented it with treasures from my own collection, and created a vintage slide show with a collage mishmash from everything I had seen that day.

Including a room where you could watch Ryan Gosling movies, if you didn’t want to go into the exhibition.

The whole thing was such an amazing experience.
Because in order to have a good time;
You have to bring your own.

Your own enthusiasm, your open heart, your own experience and your courage to try something new.
And then?
Oh, the whole world can match you.

And if something falls through, you find something else.
Or go watch Ryan Gosling dvds, and be completely fulfilled as well.

~Suzanne Beenackers
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retry from alignment | What Do Rock Stars Need To Hear Today

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retry from alignment

None of us are alike.
We come with different appetites, and are built to carry different things.

The ones you’re built to survive, are the ones that are on your real path.
—

It’s the Lion’s Gate Portal today, the 8th day of the 8th month. And I no longer remember what it stands for, but it was positive, and it was powerful because the 8 is the number of power.

So if you were born on the 8th or on the 17th or 26th (which add up to 8) then you are marked for great power.
You’re able to handle it, to carry its weight.
And should feel right at home today, the 8th of August.
But the portal is for all of us, and let’s just call it an alignment portal.

Because the word Manifestation (portal) implies you’re building something from scratch, stomping it out of the ground with your own willpower.
The exact thing we don’t want to do.

‘Cause if it’s aligned then it’s already there.
You just need to get back to the Self naturally equipped to carry it.

But there is a catch;
The levels to which this society has managed to derail and misdirect everybody from their natural let’s call it “power grid” into a Sunday school version of being a good little capitalist consumer languishing away in the prison of a job you do not like-
is unprecedented.

We are uprooted not from location, but from our power.
We no longer have access to it.

And so like caged animals we start overeating, showing repetitive behavior, we think in loops and our thoughts go from the vastness of the planes to the confinement of our cages.
Slowly, we die.

This day;
Drop the bars you’re holding up yourself.
Walk away from the terror of small mindedness.
Burn the learned concept of what is good, and attune to the wisdom of your inner flame.

The truth of who you really are will set you free.

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